looking for a deeper realm within me...

new, green, novice….i;;m clearing the path one step at a time as i go….my communication systems are down….my arise in this world is just now taking place it feels…it's as though i am refreshed and remember nothing with the start of each new day.  My goal is to obtain peace….balance…to find an equalibrium in life, love, happiness…to live to see and know life in only these degrees….wheather it be to experience very little happiness…..or tremendous quantites of love….measure life as though the glass is more so full than empty….
religion is minimul in my life….focus is easy distracted and distraut….i am looking for support in obtaining a better liking and control of my soul…my mind…my body….the world which i see….
can someone advise me in practices and exercise…..possibly even sites of retreats where i can seek help with me….and all that i am and desire to do….?