Endurance:

After I got a phone call, I felt angry and hurt. 
The caller was impatient, rude and angry because I do not hear as expected to hear.  Angry because my hearing is diminished. 
My ears are 72yrs old.  Sometimes ears become disabled with age. 

Then I think, when I meet someone who does not hear well, I make it MY RESPONSABILITY to face that person, make sure I have their attention and they can see me talk and then I try to talk clearly but not with exaggerating lips or mouth or tone of voice.  I have friends who do that with me.  And we enjoy many long conversations.

Whatever the disability or age, I too may be so someday.

Why are those dearest to me, the most impatient with me?
Why, why, why, why, … … … … .?
          not be courteous
          not be gentle
          not be caring
          not be patient
          not be helpful
          not be generous with self
            “    “       “          “    time
            “    ”       “          ”     attention?
Many would walk away if treaed like me.
        What is my problem?
Before the telephone rang, I was enjoying life as I would if living alone.
I was not aware of my aloneness.  I was reading a novel, kitchen was orderly, light classics were playing on Public Radio.   —-
   I was into the story, in the moment, at peace with me. 

What Next?
There is a time limit.  My lease here expires 10/1/09.  There really is nothing I can do about the thoughtless abuse.
There is plenty to do in preparing for the move.    But,
for some reason I fail to do that.

I indulge in what gives rest, peace and pleasure in the moment.
That is how I endure.   

Joyous Mary
1937
   
   

Re: Endurance:

Feeling the pain of this transitional period in your life, Joyous Mary, and so happy you decided on this name to see you through this challenging time.

Re: Endurance:

the moment is perfect and balanced… then the phone rings and the outside world breaks in…

we are always learning

love

Re: Endurance:

Thank you, Meenakshi and Thank you, HummingBird.
I just got a thought:  “If only I would just relax, maybe it wouldn't hurt so much.”

Those words were spoken to me about 50 years ago:    “If only you would relax,  it wouldn't hurt so much.”

I was apprehensive about being pregnant for the second time and fearful of again experiencing the pain of childbirth and the doctor said:   “If only you would relax, … “  “Don't resist.”

So here I am again, facing the birth of a new period in life. 
A  ” … challenging time” =  labor,   ” .  .  .  always learning” =  birthing.

LIFE

Re: Endurance:

I love that bridge you just built, between what was then and is now.

Re: Endurance:

Joyous, it is a wonderous experience to see another liberating themselves. I am feeling this wonder and deep respect for your process
love