Invisibility and Energetic Efficiency

The Castaneda teachings talk a lot about energetic efficiency, the result of disciplined recapitulation and stalking with utter intent.  After years and years of recapitulation and cleaning/clearing the energetic links and just generally functioning through pure intent it seems that significant invisibility has claimed my reality.  At first this bothered me; people would steal my ideas and put them into play right in front of me as though my very existence was null and void.  In years past, my ego fought for the recognition, my anger would mount and my husband would reassure me that the “nagual” is never noticed, could come and go like the wind, is invisible, catalyzes change behind the scenes etc., etc.  This is different though, it isn't a book, a “story”, this is my life.

Now, the joy of utter invisibility and lack of “recognition” for so many things is basically confirmation of the personal freedom that has been so ardently and passionately sought after.  How incredibly amazing to me, to be standing in the center of a room and no one knows you are there.  To be able to truly move in and out like the wind, a mere whisper in the midst of chaos.  To really be the observer, the “double”, within your own reality, simply watching an unfolding that if, held onto could potentially compromise total freedom while at the same time allowing those participating within it to process, albeit unwittingly, the potential to get closer to their own freedom.