| |
Awen,
I have most definately been caught in this trap. Changing your affirmations, I would say, is a huge stride in the right direction.
Not long ago, I didn't paint or write out of a sense of inadequacy, or incompetence. It was a challenging place to be, and it lasted for years. My stiffled creativity caused a great deal of difficulty in my life. I was discussing this 'block' with a close friend who made a profound statement. I can't remember exactly, but I'll do the best I can as it changed my whole perspective. He basically told me that I was being egotisticle to think that my creations would matter so much to people that they'd spend an effort criticizing, or even commenting. How big my ego must be to think that I mattered SO MUCH to complete strangers. Those that truly loved me and cared for me would appreciate anything I did. I was, at first, shocked that he would say what initially seemed to me as harsh. After a while, I realized that he had a very good point. Who was I doing these paintings for? For whom did I write? The answer to both was 'me' and so, I reclaimed my creativity. I write now more than I ever did. Painting takes more time for me and is so more often on the back burner. I'm also a singer and sit-in regularly during another friend's gigs. We have a BEST time and neither of us cares much about who's listening and who isn't.
My encouragement is with you. I hope you are able to reclaim your reativity and your voice of creation.
Peace,
Anna
|
