Gabriele is taking a downtime

Dear friends,

I'll be gone for a while, as a moderator. Here's part of my blogpost today, where I wrote about what's going on for me right now.

I’ve spent the weekend in bed, weak as a kitten, sleeping and dozing most of the time. Reading a bit. Doing hardly anything. I just couldn’t.

I’ve gone through some intense stuff lately. I don’t seem to be the only one. A lot of my friends feel on overwhelm, too. Things tend to boil up and come to surface intensely these days.

I’ve exhausted myself, lost my grounding. I felt overwhelmed with what was going on. I don’t feel these things fully in the thick of it. There’s a loyal warrior part in me that helps me collect my strength and support what needs to be supported. But when the pressure abates, I crash.

It’s a pattern that is familiar to me. So I’ve taken a time-out and started to fast on Saturday, even though I was pretty weak already. It just felt right. And it still does. I need a cleanse, and time to clear myself. Let the poison of too much pressure and involvement wash out of my system, let my thoughts wander freely, let my intuitive voice get more space in the quietness of my retreat.

No worries, nothing dramatic. I'll be back. I have felt too exhausted to read or comment in the past days, but I keep coming here to have a look what you're up to. Fortunately, we have Sparrow joining the Mod Squad in perfect timing.

See you all again soon.
Gabriele

Re: Gabriele is taking a downtime

Dear Gabriele,

I wish you peace and healing in your downtime.  I think there is something liberating and absolutely necessary about saying “I have had enough of everything and I am taking time to nurture myself”; this is where selfishness takes on a new, positive meaning.  We can't be any good to anybody when we have stripped the cupboard bare and just keep pushing forward.  And life is supposed to be enjoyed, right?

sending you a virtual massage and a hug too

xo
Chris

Re: Gabriele is taking a downtime

Just to let everyone know, that to support our dear Gabriele to fully embrace her downtime, she is, for the time being, not a moderator. She's still here, with us, and you might see her here and there, but she needs no pressure for doing anything other than taking care of herself… I encourage this fully….

Love to all,
Sandra

Re: Gabriele is taking a downtime

Just dropping in to say “love you” to Gabriele.  love you love you love you

Re: Gabriele is taking a downtime

Ditto to what Ayla said. Love and lots of wonderful, peaceful healing moments coming your way.

Andrea

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Hitchcock says that Drama is real life with the boring bits taken out … now if that's not a lesson I don't know what one is :–)

Gabriele take a big break …. sort out the boring bits and wow us when you return

…. erm, I mean in esperanto of course :–)

Jim x

Re: Gabriele is taking a downtime

take very good care Gabriele,

I wish you the very best, and take the time that you need to care for yourself and your family. We will be here when you are ready to come back.

xo
Leigh-Anne

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May you grow in strength Gabriele!

Love,

David

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Gabrielle, do you have a feather quilt/comforter, /blanket ? that can explain why one someimes wakesup feeling down. Ho  ho ha ha he he, cackle, guffaw, snikker, Chuckle, etc. Enjoy your down time Gabriel. You'll be diving deeper soon with us,

Mike

Update: Gabriele is leaving Gaia

Mikey,

funny you reanimated this old thread. I think this is actually where things started going downhill for me. I've just started packing, emptying my profile, leaving messages, saying farewell. Here's the update.

I have been on zaadz (now Gaia) for almost 14 month. It has been a rich time.

I've seen it all here, the good, the bad and the ugly. There has been enormous inspiration, love and friendship. Over the things that have upset me I'll draw a curtain of silence. Everybody with eyes to see will sooner or later discover that every community can only be as 'good' as each member is willing to be honest  (first with themselves), present, loving and self-reflecting.

On Gaia, like everywhere else, I have experienced humans being humans - extraordinary in countless ways, shallow, loving, lying, immensely inspiring and immensely disappointing, and all of the rest of the spectrum. How could it be differently? This is who we are. I am this.

I have done wonderful things here, and I have done them my way. (Hear the song? ;) Now I'm tired. I have reached my limit of what I'm capable and willing to be part of. My community days are over for now.

There are some things I have to take care of before I go, responsibilities that need to be passed on. A couple of days from now I should be ready to delete my profile.

It has been an amazing experience, being part of zaadz and  of Gaia. This is what I will remember.

With love to all.
May all beings live in peace.

Gabriele
June 27, 2008.

Re: Update: Gabriele is leaving Gaia

Dear Gabriele,

I am about to head off for a holiday until next Thursday and will likely miss your departure. 

I have so enjoyed our cyber-friendship.  It is remarkable how much of a person can come through in the written word.  Your presence here on DD and Gaia has been treasured, and I will miss you dearly. 

I wish you peace and beauty and really delicious words.

with love, love, love, love, love,

Sparrow

Re: Gabriele is taking a downtime

Gabriele,

It saddens me immensely to see you leae. Yet, I do understand that sometimes to move on, we need to let go. I know your presence will be missed to an extreme level on Diving Deeper, especially by those who have been around for a while. As far as I am concerned, you will always be my friend no matter where you are.

For me, you were my first real link to the land that my father's side comes from outside of a few aunts that I haven't seen in 25 years, and who are probably long gone by now. I never had the opportunity to really get to know the Germanic side of our family very well, and your friendship started connecting me more and more to that half of who I am. I will always appreciate that opening up to me through your friendship.

Love to you, and I hope you begin to feel better and clearer soon.

Always,

Andrea