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I just wanted to say I'm sorry I've been so absent the last while - the busy-ness factor here in Toronto has ramped up and I think I just might combust if it gets any busier! 10 hours of dental work last week (all done, thank God), our 'stuff' is in the container and on it's way to Ireland… I thought I'd have time to relax now but it doesn't seem that way. But I am seeing Leigh-Anne tomorrow, yay!

I'll be back in Ireland next week and perhaps things will slow to normal. I hope…

Much love to all,
Sandra

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well, Sandra, I don't think that you need to apologize for anything - sometimes there are just things that need to be taken care of - like your health, and moving your things, and they should be the top priority. I know that when you are home again and settled, it will soon be time to be back here, and the place will continue to liven up, people will share more and more of their writing and so on and so on (could I use more and's??)

I think you have packed in an amazing amount of activity in a short period of time - and no one would fault you for it, not me for sure! You deserved all of this time. We aren't going anywhere :-)

oh well I am going somewhere tomorrow, and I can't wait ;-)

big hugs to you my friend!

much love to YOU!

Leigh-Anne

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You guys get to meet tomorrow?  OH GREAT!  That is fantastic.  (I don't think you should apologize either, Sandra.  Life has a way of taking us this way and that.  You're just going “that way” for awhile.)   Will look forward to hearing about your meeting,  love  Kathy

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Hello dear ones,

 a short note from my cave in Berlin… What a lovely thought to know that you are meeting tomorrow, Sandra and la!

For me, just leaving the area I'm living in seems too much of a stretch righ now, leave alone crossing a couple of oceans to get over there to where you are. But were you meeting here in Berlin, oh well, that would be a totally different ball game. I'd even take the S-Bahn to come and see the both of you!  :)

Besides all personal reason for being or not being here, I keep seeing something energetical going on where we all are connected, in our presence here as well as in our absence. I think it's kind of in the air that most of us seem to be taking care of things or withdrawing into their processes for a while.

There is an ebb and flow to the creative process and the longer we meet here, the more it becomes obvious that there is an ebb and flow to our presence here as well.

We'll all be back, I'm sure, in the near future. I, for one, feel like I'm resurfacing from somewhere I have been disappearing into the last couple of weeks.

Nothing to apologize for, Sandra, I wholeheartedly agree. You and la, do a hug for me, will 'ya?  :)  I LOVE the idea that you are meeting tomorrow. Wish I could be HERE and meet you, too. ;)

Lots of love,
Gabriele

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And I wish I could be at that meeting too. No apologies necessary, Sandra. You've got a wonderment of writers holding down the fort for you return. :)

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*ahem* clearly there were not enough hours in the day for our visit today Sandra. I just didn't want it to end :-) I think I might have to consider some extend vacations sometime soon… !

thank you xo
much love to you

and yes to meeting everyone sometime. what a lovely thing that would be - but we would have to remind me to eat - because in fact, I was so busy talking this afternoon that I forgot to :-P

hugs to you all xo
la

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oh… I so wish la and I could have had **days** together. There was so much lovely sharing and listening I forgot to eat too ;-) I think we have lifetimes of chatting and connecting ahead (and probably several 'behind' us too, I sense)

I'm dead beat right now, but I very much wanted to drop in here for a moment.
So lovely to read you Gabriele, Kathy, Siona…everyone. I think one day we have to arrange a 'real life' hang-together group. We'll just have to hire people to whisper 'it's time to eat' quietly into our ears every so often!

more soon.
xoxo
Sandra

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I think one day we have to arrange a 'real life' hang-together group.

Oh, Sandra. How fantastic that would be! A teleportation feature has been on the Gaia developer list for years now; I'll have to check to see how it's coming…

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you give so much Sandra of yourself to us. Thank you. I certainly don't feel neglected by you.  If anything..I'm  mostly… incredible jealous that you and la got to meet.  I am pretty close to toronto, 5hours and the desire to hop in the auto and zoom to you both.. well. wow.  and not eating.. nother wow.  That's my kinda diet.
The dentist makes me quake.  I wrote a little story about the a woman and the dentist.  I'll have to send it out.  Maybe I did… can't remember.  anyway.
safe passage home my friend.
And la,  we live pretty close.  My partners daughter just bought a house in London.  
xox breath/jeanne

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yes to days :-) and days. I think what we truly need is someone to just bring the food and refreshments next time ;-)

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i am so glad to hear that tow of you met and enjoyed your time so much you forgot to eat; clearly evidence of a different chromosome set then the ones i was brough  into this world with. 

Apologies. Humm. I was reflecting on how to apologize to the group for a few days prior to your post sandra. then i read yours and felt off the hook. I have been a weak group member adn will continue to be so for a while, maybe even a long while. I post something every now and then, add a couple of comments to clear my conscience and that is my involvement these days. things are full for me now and don't see that changing in the near future.  Hopefully i have filled my involvement bank enough to hold me over.

Peace,
michael

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:-) michael. Well I know you are embarking on adventures and that once you are in places like mongolia, DD will seem like a distant memory, another universe! But I always appreciate your presence - even just a one line here on the Tree House every so often letting us know how you are doing feels good.

I think it is an unusual time for many of us, in a way feels (to me) a bit like a kind of 'disintegration'. What will arise next, out of the disintegration? Personally, globally, on DD itself?

I don't know. For me I get, as you know, very 'motherly' about DD and everyone in it, so I'm always wondering how I can help things to flourish, and if it's slow I feel responsible, that it's my fault - and that it 'should' be different. But maybe it's just what is going on, and there is no need to 'force' anything to happen. (I'm hearing your voice in my hear, Ruth! and several of you who keep reminding me to look at the larger picture).

On another note, I'd like to ask for some love to be sent to my ex and his family - I met and spoke with him for the first time in years. He's in a real crisis - his wife is very unwell (mentally) - they have two girls, 7 and 13 - and they don't have any real support at all for what's going on (which is rather more complicated than I've written here - eg they are in legal battle with landlords and may be on the street any day). I found it very painful to see him in such difficulty, a bit of a trigger for me I suppose as he and I also went through deep crisis when we were together, without any support from friends or family.

There are some practical things I'm trying to do (my hubby's sister has very good contacts in the mental health area), and la has given me some great information that might help the kids etc. Anyway, I'd be grateful for some loving thoughts to be sent their way. Thanks.

Much love,
Sandra

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For me I get, as you know, very 'motherly' about DD and everyone in it, so I'm always wondering how I can help things to flourish, and if it's slow I feel responsible, that it's my fault - and that it 'should' be different. But maybe it's just what is going on, and there is no need to 'force' anything to happen. (I'm hearing your voice in my hear, Ruth! and several of you who keep reminding me to look at the larger picture).

:) It is so hard to detach from our babies, isn't it?

As you know, I seldom get into discussions of this sort. But I am aware; I am here constantly, if not in words. Without question, you have my support, it's just that my support is more of a silent (meditative?) underpinning than anything else. Which is funny, given my love for words.

As for apologies, I don't believe in them. I spent the first half (more) of my life apologizing for everything—a friend once told me I apologize too much and I replied “I'm sorry!”—and one day I just stopped (ok, the odd one does slip out). Was it when I decided to forgive myself for thinking I (or anyone else) ever did anything wrong? Nothing to forgive, nothing to apologize for. I am what I am. It is.

Love to you, to your ex's family, to all and sundry.

Ruth the Rippler (no relation to Jack R :)


PS Remember (maybe not) when I first started here I was using a blue ripple icon? Well, a zaadznowgaia friend still calls me Bright Ripply One. I like love that! What started out being about peace has morphed into love. Of course!

PPS Not sure why I got into that, and part of me wants to apologize for times when I'm not (or not seen to be) rippling love. :)


Oh right, and DD is what it is. It got me writing again. Writing that sentence (“It [DD] got me writing again”) brought tears to my eyes just now, and a lump to my throat. What more can I say?

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Oh bright ripply one!

Nothing to forgive, nothing to apologize for. I am what I am. It is.

Yes, yes and more yes. Thanks so much for the reminder.

I think if I had really tuned in when I had started this thread, it probably would have just been something simple like “I'm feeling all over the place and a bit disconnected”. You've reminded me how much easier it is to respond to someone simply sharing how 'it is' for them rather than going into a 'story' about it ( i.e. the I'm sorry bit).

I think there is a place for saying “I'm sorry” but it's a quantum leap - more, it's another dimension - from the usual apology/blame/ stuff, I mean the Ho'oponopono “I'm sorry” process. I've been doing some of this for my ex & family.

xo
S.

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Yes.

Oh, I just reread what I wrote at the end of my previous post and realize it's not quite clear what I meant. What I meant to say was that writing the sentence about DD being what got me writing again, I had tears… (Oh wait, I'm a mod, I can just go in and change it!  :)

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:-) I got it the first time dear one. I was silently loving and appreciating when I read that bit, so grateful to have you here, to feel that there are others who feel as I do about writing, about freefall, about a certain kind of gathering of writers and how important this is for 'the work', for our souls… for life.

xoxo