Hanuman Is

The sun stood behind a soft gray door. I crouched in the dusty rocker, squinting. The leaves around me reminded me of the sunset. The brown ones had gone down. It was like night had come. Others had fallen, showing me such beauty, their light changing. I listened intently to them falling. Sighs and murmurs. Once in another time I commanded them to stop. “Please don't lose what you have shown me,” I pleaded. I did not want the brittle brown stillness. But now the sky was coming once again. And the wind reminded me as it tugged at the colors. I held a piece of the tree in my hand, a tiny palette.I touched my finger to the leaf and streaked my face with the colors: orange,  yellow, a burning red, some blue down my nose, some purple across my brow. “I will let this color remind me,” I thought. Then I remembered Rama's hand on my shoulder. And his voice telling me that how you see is like a squirrel curled sleeping in a tree, waiting for you to look, to awaken it. “The world starts that way,” he said.  “What is this power that I have?” I remembered thinking. He smiled. “It is not yours. It is not something you can ever know.”  In Rama's face I saw the same colors I had on my face now. It was the same. This then was my lineage.  Through this leaf into Rama's face and back into mine. Who was looking at this leaf? Maybe it was Rama in the temple. Maybe it is the wind now moving in me here in the rocking chair. Maybe it is the falling sense of the colors that are filling me. Maybe it is the rattling sound of the leaves above. I lean forward. I cannot find that sound. Through the trees the mountain is growing in me. It pops out through the top of my head, perched there like a cap. It too carries all the colors.  And it warms me in the cool air…

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can i be lost in these words? I think I can be found here somewhere on the breeze at the edges.

I felt transported and translucent and colourful

If you have anything more to share, I would love love love to read it.
is there a story behind to above piece? what was the inspiration?

xx azyh

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Thanks azyh, for your kind words. As Nono indicated there are five Hanuman pieces. Beginning with Hanuman in Love, Hanuman Loves, Hanuman Leaps, Hanuman Returns, and this one, Hanuman Is. They can be found in clusters by searching under Hanuman. They are hard to describe I think. Prose poems, stories, tales. But they come in quiet little bursts. There is not so much a chronology as a progression into the world around him through a woman he loves. His role as a bridge across the gaps between desire and fulfillment is complicated by his own desire. That is the main jist. I imagined his sense of straddling this world and the deeper world. Ron

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Thank you Ron :)

loved finding more of Hanuman and I love how this comes in bursts. As if this is how he holds that world of her… sweet bursts that carry a scent and overwhelm back into silence.

leaving -me- the reader admiring the sculptured foot print…

thank you thank you thank you

Hanuman in Love
http://groups.gaia.com/creativewriting/conversations/view/145341

Hanuman Loves
http://groups.gaia.com/creativewriting/conversations/view/152252

Hanuman Leaps
http://groups.gaia.com/creativewriting/conversations/view/162997

Hanuman Returns
http://groups.gaia.com/creativewriting/conversations/view/198007

Hanuman Is
http://groups.gaia.com/creativewriting/conversations/view/455569

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Azyh, thank you for gathering the stories together here. I am terrible at creating these hyperlinks. I hope they give you a better sense of Hanuman. Your descriptions are poems themselves. I like “the sculptured foot print”. And I appreciate your later remarks too. You are too kind. Ron

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I have been reading this many times but finding myself a bit terrified saying anything… this kind of poetry is so far from what I usually do. Never the less, beautiful and full of magic.

Azyh, Ron have written some hauntingly beautiful pieces about Hanuman for a long time ago. I would tip you to make a search with the search engine with the keyword Hanuman.

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Nono, thank you for your sweet remarks and directions to azyh. Nono, you can always say what you feel and it will be true.  Yes. Ron

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mmmn - beautiful, soporific and captivating!
I am also a new convert to your work, Ron and loving it..

@~)

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siafu, thank you. They still give me a sense of calm when I read them. Ron

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okay

what I feel is feeling of profound, something fundamental, and at the same time so familiar and every day that it would pass without notice if I met it on the street. Hanuman is a vision inside a vision, the pole around whom the globe turns and at the same time he is the one that speaks with a little squirrel, sleeping in a tree.

piuf, I said it.

I like Hanuman, a lot. Always have.

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Yes, Nono. He is ordinary in that he has compassion, he cares. Compassion only works when you are given over to the other. Without reservation. And in some sense the world does turn on that. I think your comment is beautiful Nono. What does piuf mean?

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:D

There's no fooling you Ron. the piuf part means that I have always been a bit “afraid” to comment on your pieces. Where does this come from me not know. But I quess it's done now. I did okay, short, but fair.

better next time, okay?