The Hollow Man

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I think it was Mark Twain who said, “If I had more time, I'd have written it shorter.”
:D

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Mudge, that was so funny, it made me giggle uncontrolably. My be you can help me, I was writing some a long piece called the hollow man , I save it and then decided dto go back and edit it. What you see is whats left after trying it.  It must have been a computer glich, all my writing just dissappered.

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Peter, when you say you saved it does that mean you could edit the post and paste it back again?

(btw I think I snorted laughing just now with what Mudge and you just said)

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I saved it, but then I wanted dto add something to it so I pushed the edit option and the text appeard for aa second and then disappered. I thought maybe I should write something in the empty space left behind from the disappearing text.  I typed a quotation mark and saved it to see if it would appear in my original paragraph. Instead of that happing , the entire paragraph dissappeared and all that showed up was the quotation mark. 

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my experience with disappearing posts is to always save on my computer.
I had trouble copying and pasting from open office so i use notebook.
Another trick is to hit the go back one page button on the web browser after you post and see if it turns out missing or blank. This gives you the chance to see the post and then you can hit refresh (on the browser) to use the post button again.

hope that helps

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thank you, I'm definitly going to start writing in notepad first before posting it to the forum.

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I like your new graphic!  (btw)

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Check your mail.

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Quotationmark is so describing and suits for your title. But I have had these annoying dissappearances lately as well. I have “lost” so many postings. It must be the Gaia tecknique that makes it unstable.
Good advice to write in notepad first, at least the long postings.

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First my heart squeezed very tightly at the realization that I wasn't going to be able to see my two boys again like I used too. I could have them stay with me only on certain days.  When I vacated  my home and left my family (I faught to stay, but to no avail) I discovered that my heart was empty, there was only a hole left over with the exit of my soul. It was squeezed out , my heart was strangulated by loss worse then any I had experienced in the past.  I fell apart, and lost my way, I didn't know where to go or what to do.  No one wanted to take sides,  I was totally alone . I've never been alone before.  I felt numb, I even had a difficult time finding my car.  I had never been on my own. God, I needed someone to stay with until I could sort all this out and figure out what to do next. The panic disorder and OCD kicked in full strength.  The support payments and no job.  When the payments didn't arrive on time or not at all, I was told by a judge that I won't be able to see my kids if I don't pay.  The thing is is that I wanted to pay.  What  I couldn't understand was how a judge can tell me that I can't see my kids if I don't pay. When I was married and lost a job and had a difficult time paying our bills on time , no one ever said I can't see my kids until I pay my bills or put enough food on the table to eat. Why was I being treated this way, how can a judge dare and tell me such things, it unnatural, it goes against fundamental instincts, the law of nature. He wasn't there when my children were born, where was he ! when I was caring for my sons chicken pox, putting anti itch loation on those itchy blisters.  How can someone think that they have a right to tell a father when they can see their kids, what's their source of reasoning, how can there be a written source on something so inherent in humans, hard wired in our biology.  How absurd.  All this weirdness came down to money, Money !   I felt so dizzy , so lost , my heart was hollow, there was no more warmth in it, I couldn't feel any love coming from it and there was absolutely no love from the outside.  Why wasn't I dead, by all means I should have died, I always thought it wasn't possible to live without a soul. I was hollow inside like a dead stalk of bamboo whos life as a bamboo was over its fate was either to rut in the ground or be found by a passerby that likes to make bamboo flutes.  I was so lost without my soul.

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I could hear the bamboo flute as I read this to the end, low and haunting.

I felt frustrated with the situation shared. If a parent wants to parent, then I say support that as best as you can. Too many times i have dealt with parents that do not want to parent. I felt the soul of this parent  in the -i- character and I question if this soul was really missing at all?

would the -i- character really be soulless and still have this conversation? maybe it's the conversation that blows through the flute made new from old bamboo to show us the soul is true… stronger then first thought.

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Oh Peter!
This piece engaged me a lot. I started to think about the kids situation in this piece and in the world. Why do we humans do such a things to kids.

I use to take care of one extrakid through the social services and it is first now, when she has turned 12 when she gets her own voice. She has been wanting to move to her mothers (in this case the system has worked for the fafor of the dad) for so long time. Nobody listens her. Now that our law says that the 12 year old has the right to say where they want to live ( when questioned by court/social services ). She have been waiting this day, to fill 12 so she can have the right to be with her mom.

It is adaults that do these horrendous things. Couples in separation try to hurt each other by not letting the other one (often dad) see the kids. How about kids? Nobody ask them! They loose in any case when this kind of “fight” between interests takes place.

Oh, I am so angry!

So, Peter, I really got the feeling from this piece. really engaging story. And very illuminating about out backwards society of today.

Thank you for the read.

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Hi Peter-
I glad to see you overcame adversity and got this posted.  Since yesterday, I've lost 2 posts, I guess it's the universe's way of punishing me for being a smarty pants..

The -I- character is evocative in this scenario.  You really get a sense of loss and helplessness.  Thanks for going fear-ward.

blessings-