Lost and Found

It has taken me forever to write down what I think and feel.  I am not sure if I was to start a new thread or not for feer that I would do something wrong. OMG, I am writing at loose ends and feel at a lost because I am acutually doing this. (THINKING)   
Do I continue to ramble on? Is this where I am suppose to be?  Do I sound like a shy person whom has never written in public before…you bet!  I feel lost and out of place and not sure if this is all suppose to make sense.  I just decided tonight I was going to write this thing before going to sleep and not think about it anymore.  This was really hard for me to get started and try to complete this one assignment so that I can move forward and be found.  So, now I am starting to sound like Amazing Grace and I am thinking how hard this for me so please please go easy for the next I know where I will be going next.

I did it!
Gail :)

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OOPS!  This was suppose to go under truly bad writing!  Sorry!

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Yay!!

(and it's easy for mods to move a thread around, so don't worry about putting things in the wrong place, if you let us know we can always shift it!)

now I am starting to sound like Amazing Grace

I loved that and had a big yes - I wanted to hear MORE of this amazing grace… this moving forward, this being found, this being lost – something there that really pulled and engaged me, I felt touched and included in a very sweet and vulnerable way.

The start was interesting for me too – I could almost feel, palpably, that 'forever' it took. I just took a look at the line and expected it to have started with a lower case 'i' for it, but it didn't. It really felt like I'd walked into a the middle of a process, so I'm not sure how this was done, but it was done, wonderful.  And, I also had the sense that I wanted to hear *all* that had been thought and felt - as if it had been done, but not so much here, that that bit was 'before'.

I'd love to have more.. I got a sense that something was just getting started. It's good to experiment with staying writing longer than the alloted time - often just as the clock goes it's when we are getting close to something 'more'.. and the trick is to sit it out, to 'show' the body/mind that we won't die/collapse/incinerate if we do carry on. It's a kind of 'hump' that once we get over a few times, it becomes easier and easier. Well, not always, I still have 'humps' all over the place, but part of me knows that I will survive if I get over them, even if I shy away a lot ( and I do, an awful lot!)

more please!

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Yes you did! (do it)   No going back now.  You're trapped in the creative vortex.  You'll have to write your way out.  Welcome to DD!

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this is great gail.
I empathize with you.
you did it!!! For better or for worse I always feel.

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Gail, for some reason I love the line

This was really hard for me to get started and try to complete this one assignment so that I can move forward and be found.

There is something deeply touching me in the moving forward and be found bit. A soft force of hope, maybe, or trust even, a certainty of being found in the end. I very much like that. It is enough to form the ghost of a character. Someone shy and hesitant and almost invisibly brave. Someone who will be found if only she moves forward, or what seems like forward…

What a lovely story in one sentence - could be the beginning of a novel!

:)

Yes, it's that easy. And that hard. Welcome to Diving Deeper!

Love,
Gabriele

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Thanks Gail… You did it… well done.  Moving forward so you can be found.
That line… I love it.  It tells it all for me.
Feeling lost, not seen, afraid to be seen… how ever the
manifestation.  and in the creative act of moving forward, no
matter how small the step, the invitation to be found is cast.
I see you Gail… I see you and can't wait to see you more.
x jeanne/breath

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Wow, I am so moved and touched by everyone's sentiment.  Thank you Sandra, my lifesaver, for moving a mountain for me.  After completing the historical moment of uncertainty, I climbed into bed with an “uh” “oh” and jumped up, went online again to apologize for being in the wrong place at the right time…LOL.

Thank you all for making me feel welcomed! Yes, it was hard at first to get started but here I am in the “vortex” as Mudge said and I am here to stay.  I do get spurts of inspiration but I just learned from this lesson that I can truly write without really thinking.  You have shown me that it only takes, one word or a line to simply just be the story.  I will be learning so much from you.  I can hardly wait!

Love
Gail