Gaia: DIVING DEEPER: A Writing Workshop - The Tree House

Re: Dizzying December #4

http://sandrajensen.gaia.com — Wed, 30 Dec 2009 23:24:32 GMT

as December whirls to its Dizzy end, I'm wondering about next month's Monthly Moderating... perhaps we'll take a break and I'll do a January Thread. But I've asked one or two people and am awaiting news, and if anyone wants to jump in ... let us know!

Pity Ronan can't type -yet. He lies patiently beside my computer watching my fingers.. He's nearly doubled in size since he arrived !

I'll actually be offline from mid-day on the 31st to late afternoon on the 1st. Hubby and I are off to Cork for a special night out with dinner at one of the best vegetarian restaurants in Europe and a night in an upmarket Bed and Breakfast. I feel like I can't cook ever again I've done so much in the last week so it will be very welcome!

If I don't come here until Jan 1st, I wish everyone a truly wonderful new year's eve and 2010. Andrew, I'll be thinking of you in Mad Berlin-- stay home! (for those who don't know, Berlin on New Year's eve is like being in a battle as there so many fireworks set off on the streets and everywhere... It's actually pretty weird given the history of the city!

hugs and much love to everyone.

Re: Dizzying December #4

http://apfawcett.gaia.com — Wed, 30 Dec 2009 08:21:20 GMT

Hi Deb,

Well apology accepted but....

I for one felt no sense you you abandoning us here (or me specifically) and took on no extra burden. Things have been quiet around here and I guessed that anyone not showing up had other obligations to attend.

And you being out there volunteering with the fire department sounds an important (maybe a bit exciting?) obligation to me.

So great to have you back.

Re: Dizzying December #4

http://sandrajensen.gaia.com — Tue, 29 Dec 2009 19:48:03 GMT

Deb, It's been this way for many of us, no need to apologise. I feel badly myself for being so absent, but it's just the way it is this time of year I think.

We have just deposited the last two guests in Cork City at a hotel as they have a 7 am flight and it's possible the roads will freeze tonight, making a 4 am drive very dangerous.... feels weird to have an empty house (apart from Ronan who has almost doubled his weight since being here...). David is still sick.. I hope he gets better for our special night out on the 31st.....

Re: Dizzying December #4

http://jensiper.gaia.com — Tue, 29 Dec 2009 16:41:47 GMT

It seems Deb, that you were needed else where. We are fine here. You are not the only one that was some what absent this past week or so.
No need to apologize.

Re: Dizzying December #4

http://yhd52754.gaia.com — Tue, 29 Dec 2009 15:33:59 GMT

Well my intentions before Christmas sure got way-laid.

My apologies for not being here,at all, for the last week or so. It is clearly evident to me, that I was a poor choice for MM duties this month, though I believed I would be able to ethically honor the obligations; and to Sandra, I owe the greatest apology. I suppose with the let-down from NaNo ending and the busyness of the season; it is not a big deal, and I have seen Andrew here shouldering the bulk of the responsibilities. I am just grateful there was someone to give coverage. It is not a good way to begin a new relationship with someone, shoving all of the work onto them. So, to Andrew, I also owe a huge apology, for leaving him holding the bag all alone.

Some of you may be aware, certainly Leigh-Anne is for I have seen her on the battle lines in Now I Can See The Moon, and her pure and beautiful energy certainly was shining there . . . If most of you are blissfully unaware, count yourself among the lucky, the storm simply passed you by - you really are not missing anything.

The latest Gaian storm (these blow through our community from time to time) has been doing some damage for a week now. These are always recoverable and they simply make us stronger, in an intimacy of getting to know one another better. We remember them, like we remember all named hurricanes, and they have about them the feeling of held-in-common memories.

However, these are terribly time consuming in their prolific intensity, and when one has limited on-line time, they can gobble every bit of it up and still not be enough, to keep entirely up to speed with all that transpires.

The bottom line is, that I have been neglecting the groups I cultivate and neglecting my MM duties here; and I have not been able to even start the 12 Day Assignment, or do any work on my NaNo writings. I think I will just have to let the 12 Day assignment pass me by this year, let it be blown away by the winds of the current storm and not run after it, trying to recover my intentions.

The storm has caused me to be called out as a volunteer fire fighter, often late into the night and has left me exhausted and robbed of sleep. I've been called to minister to some of those who have been wounded as well. So again, I only want to say, that I deeply regret my absence from this group but it has been unavoidable - I can only stretch so far.

Deb - who has been unable to word at all these days

Re: Dizzying December #4

http://jensiper.gaia.com — Mon, 28 Dec 2009 20:49:51 GMT

nothing worse then the stomach flu. I feel for him.
I hope everyone feels better there.
Things are kind of getting back to normal here. back to work and such.

Re: Dizzying December #4

http://sandrajensen.gaia.com — Mon, 28 Dec 2009 13:41:55 GMT

jenni... so lovely to read you, thank you! No I haven't seen that movie, I should get it!

I'm feeling better today (emotionally, body seems fine but I wonder if it will fall apart when everyone's gone..) But hubby now has a bad stomach bug, was up all night.... so much for hoping to do a repeat of the 5 course meal we did for his sister's birthday which shc and her daughter couldn't eat because of their food poisoning!!

Re: Dizzying December #4

http://jensiper.gaia.com — Sun, 27 Dec 2009 22:28:19 GMT

oh and I also worry about my mother because she lives alone, far away and what will I do when she will need more help. I am in the same boat there Sandra. Did you ever see that movie Francis with Jessica Lang. Story a little different but she went back to live with her mother for some reason at some point in her life and she did go crazy. I have to look that up. It always stuck out in my mind.

Re: Dizzying December #4

http://jensiper.gaia.com — Sun, 27 Dec 2009 22:05:33 GMT

well,
I can relate to the crying part and the mother part and the food in the fridge for that matter.
My mother was not here this year in fact she has not been up for christmas, since Richard told her she had to leave that one time many years ago when she made such a horrible scene and said horrible things.
Rich's mother has been here and is leaving today. She is a very good guest but seems forgetful recently and keeps leaving the gas on and the faucets running.
I cried today too because marty left. I didn't cry in front of him but I waited until later when it was just poly and I on our walk. I cried a lot of tears and he walked by my side a little concerned.
I don't usually cry when he leaves but for some reason this year seems different. He is has grown up so much and has a girlfriend and a car. I know that he will never stay here for long.
Harry is still here but he makes me sad too.
so heres to crying!

Re: Dizzying December #4

http://sandrajensen.gaia.com — Sun, 27 Dec 2009 15:25:56 GMT

Nono.... god. Definitely good to trust your feeling on this one and actually from what you've told us it's pretty clear he's not the one for you. I suppose it's all food for the muse that's for sure!

jenni... discombobulated, oh that's the perfect word for how I'm doing. Emotions have been flying about like crazy and I've been in tears several times since yesterday. My mother left an hour ago and everyone else is taking the other mother to the airport. First time I've been alone (with Ronan the kitty) for days. David's mother is usually the one everyone feels desperate and irritated around, but my mother took the cake this time and indeed won the Talk as Much And As Loud As You Can prize, not to mention the Grand prize for Giving Advice and Irrelevant Information at Any Opportunity... and so in the end she managed to make the others feel sorry for David's (hubby) mother, who for the first time in known history couldn't get a word in edgeways....and in a way I felt 'blamed' (not overtly) for how my mum was behaving....while I just felt so sad for my mother since the way she is is a sign of how lonely her life is.

She's on crutches now, having had a bad fall a few weeks ago, and lives alone many miles away from anyone or any village, and only one friend about 20 minutes away and she has no savings. I don't know what to do when she gets more physically incapacitated. I can't live with her, I'd get ill, so what to do? State homes would be worse than anything.

Today David woke up feeling woozy and had heart palpitations...I am sure it's just stress and lack of sleep.

The fridge is packed full of food I don't want to see the sight of again.

sigh.

I know I'll look back on this and laugh, one day....

Re: Dizzying December #4

http://quietlaughter.gaia.com — Sun, 27 Dec 2009 15:22:34 GMT

phew Nono - that is a heck of a story and 70 messages in one day is creepy! what a rollercoaster! I agree with Jenni - very good that you listened to your instincts. I am feeling dizzy from this December, and can't wait for it to be all over. heading out to xmas #3 in an hour and a bit - still am in my pj's though... tomorrow is my oldest daughter's 14th b-day, which will be fun but tiring, then I'm back to work on Tuesday. *sigh* no rest for the wicked. I'm at my end with a few things and my mood is in the toilet along with my health. I am looking forward to getting back to writing again, but more I am looking forward to sleeeeeeping.

hugs everyone
xo

Re: Dizzying December #4

http://jensiper.gaia.com — Sun, 27 Dec 2009 13:35:38 GMT

wow what a roller coaster story nono. I am reading it while i listen to ave maria. sounds like a weirdo guy. geeze. I sorry for the disappointment.
It is good you listened to your instincts.
sounds like everyone is tired from all of the festivities. I feel discombobulated. hey I actually spelled that right.
My sons and mother in law are still here. Gilda and marty are leaving today I think and I am not sure about harry.
He is morose and difficult as always. I wish he would find some peace within himself. There is a constant worry inside of me for him.
I am allergic to my christmas tree and spend every night coughing.
I had to sleep in the den with an air cleaner on last night.
It is coming down today. Enough of that.
A lot of cooking and eating the past four days. I have a ton of left overs.
It is raining.
I am going to yoga later.

Re: Dizzying December #4

http://pz.gaia.com — Sun, 27 Dec 2009 11:49:14 GMT

CREEPY... or I'm a chicken - pick one.

Well, that thing that started so excitingly wondorously became then later on last evening feel more and more uncomfy. The guy was too hot in his messages and I started to sense desperation behind it. It went that far that we decided to have a date today, but then this morning I said no... His answer was: "Your lost!"

I hope this is the last I hear of him then.

I got almost 70 messages from him yesterday and that is way too much. I had to say to him that he would cool down but the messages continued. He said he was 32 years old and chubby, so I figured his looks was not the greatest if he was seeking company with a lady wo soon will turn 50. Well, nothing wrong with that, I'm not a age-police and I'm also so old that the looks is something I should be able to see behind, right.

And it was not the looks either, it was the way he was. Going ahead way too fast and I formly squirm if someone tries to use me as a life jacket. I felt the suffication during this night and I trust that feeling. So, therefore, I rejected.

Whoa, space please! I hate to be in a corner.

But, I must say that this was an exciting experience ;) and a heck of a story that I can use as a spinn off. A stranger with a text message. There are some exciting things going on right here at home while I sit on my sofa.

God is obviously trying now - can't wait to see the third attempt. I just hope that I am not the man on the roof when water is araising and god sending a boat and another boat... ewww, why is everything so hard to figure? Shit!

Re: Dizzying December #4

http://sandrajensen.gaia.com — Sat, 26 Dec 2009 19:36:41 GMT

la... oh I'm so sorry.. I hope you feel better soon...I feel like I've been through 8 rounds of xmas... I'm so tired I can't believe it. Mothers go home tomorrow and we have the other two until the 30th...

Re: Dizzying December #4

http://sandrajensen.gaia.com — Sat, 26 Dec 2009 19:34:23 GMT

:-) Nono!!! I'll be crossing thumbs..

Re: Dizzying December #4

http://pz.gaia.com — Sat, 26 Dec 2009 14:16:01 GMT

For a Finn there's no real christmas whithout a clensing sauna bath. It was heavenly. I did lift up my feet and leaned backwards and just threw water on the hot stones over and over again. It was warm (hot), steamy and healing.

I think that I will soon have a date!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

The guy who sms:ed to me yesterday shows now a lot of interest. He is single, lives in this region of Sweden, runs a carwash, is 32 years old but likes older women (!!!???). He had found my telephonenumber in his old phone (yeah, right?!!! Coincidence?). He is chubby (just like me)...

Oh my god, I mean, is it possible to find love by sitting on my sofa? Obviously that can be arranged. Blows me away.

Of course I am not in love for heavens sake, I have not met him, just changed sms:es with him. I don't know how he looks really.

This is interesting :) Look what Santa pulled out.

Re: Dizzying December #4

http://quietlaughter.gaia.com — Sat, 26 Dec 2009 02:22:17 GMT

well home finally from round 1 of christmas, tomorrow is #2 and hopefully won't end as late. I'm beyond tired, sick again and annoyed which is not what I want to be feeling right now but whatever - gonna happen after waiting an hour and a half after dinner for brother-in-law's new girlfriend to show up so that the family can do presents. I'm going to need a glass of wine or ten before sleeping tonight! Sandra - the outtalking moms made me chuckle. glad that you had a good day xo Nono - I want a sauna too - that would be a wonderful thing. My stomach has been upside down since this morning - I am hoping wine will fix it. How cool about the homeless black cat... mine will NOT leave my side today no matter what I do... the pic is how close he had to be to me all day until we left for the inlaws house.

I hope that everyone has had wonderful days xo

anyway, I will sleep soon and feel better.. dammit!

Re: Dizzying December #4

http://sandrajensen.gaia.com — Fri, 25 Dec 2009 23:30:35 GMT

a christmas sauna bath???? I WANT one of those NOW!

Well, the day is finally over....the sick ones somewhat better... I'm exhausted and my ears are ringing (with the outtalking mothers). But it was a good day all in all.

time to drop into bed.
Much love everyone...

Re: Dizzying December #4

http://pz.gaia.com — Fri, 25 Dec 2009 23:09:29 GMT

Howdy doo everyone!

I got a painting from my daughter as a x-mas present. It's a unicorne. So I decide it's a magic one. I wonder what Unicorn means, need to go study that. We get the x-mas presents the 24th.
I was at my brothers house and had a christmas sauna bath then a heavy dinner. Today has been a scilent day for me. Stomac is upside down because of the unusual and heavy food. Well, not to mention all chokolate.
Today I got an sms message that said domething like this: "Hi my name is Magnus and I live in Smaland. I found your number on my old sim card. Wonder who you are where you live and how old you are. Would you answer me?" So, I am also wondering who the heck this Magnus is. Should I answer, that is the question. His number was not listed, I have tried to find it.

Well well, oh, and my brother of all persons had taken a homeless black cat in his house. The cat is called Cypsy. A black homeless cat... reminds me of something ;) thee hee

something odd is on its move

Re: Dizzying December #4

http://sundovt.gaia.com — Fri, 25 Dec 2009 21:54:11 GMT

Maerry Cratcheting holidays.

I was boiling me beans inside out and somehow the smell prompted me to play some Wagner. After big hats and bigger voices and sweeping grand gestures and a gnawing curiosity I surfed onto the net. I thought I knew some stuff, but discovered he wrote the "wedding march". Who knew.
I found this tube in my travels, and without further ado- Ave.