even worse bad writing

i think i'm going to become addicted to writing badly.  i'm very good at becoming addicted to things.  coffee, chocolate, sleeping.  i want to find my own voice but i think i might hate it.  i hate what comes out of me a lot of the time.  i don't like hearing what i say, or reading what i write or looking in the mirror some days and other days it's not so bad.  some days just glide by and i don't really feel so bad.  i'm hating what i am wriing right now because it is so random but i'm just letting it spill out of me.  this is really very therapeutic and it's odd whtat writin gcan do when you let it just spill out of you adn don't give yoruself time to go back and correct or make sure that what you've writtn wisn't stupid or completely unreadlalbe.  cathartic.  that's what it is and i'm in lvoe with that word.  cathartic.  did i spell it right?  it doesn't matter.  i lvoe other words to.  i'm not a one word kind of girl.  i have an open relationship with words.  my words on the side are twilight, surrender, free, damask, alabaster, cacophony…that one probably isn't spelled right eitehr.  i liek to use these a lot….these little dots….i should know what they are called but i can't think of it right now…eclipse, i know it sounds like eclipse…it could be ellipse.  i don't know….
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i over use them i know i do but using these little…it seems to me that it presents a more accurate map of my thought processess…i think in these…
has it been 15 minutes yet?  i never could master the number keys in typing.  i can type about 50 wpm but when i get to a number key I have to stop and look at my fingers, look at the board.  i have a mental block when it comes to numbers in a lot of ways…i'm terribel at math…
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hmm….what else?
i'm not fond of triscuits.  i want to be.  but i'm not. 
the goats are making interesting noises in my backyard.  or perhaps it's a cat.  it could be a child. it's funny that i can't tell the difference.  i have four cats.  four.  read em and weep.  my god, it certainly can get very pungent in my home if hte litter boxes aren't scooped several times a day. one of them refuses to cover his deposits..it's very upsetting.

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One day, I'm going to put these pieces of 'bad writing' together and get them published. For me they are a total inspiration not to mention so damn funny. The writing is nearly always 'naked' - even when it's not, i.e even when the writer is trying to do a particular 'bad' style, the nakedness comes through. So refreshing and exactly what I like to read, in any genre.

Well. This is yet another fabulous fabulous piece of TBW, Tawny.

As always, this isn't bad writing at all. It's a doorway into the heart of the -I- character - a lively, curious, delightful heart it is. I began to copy bits I liked in particular but would have ended up copying the whole thing so I gave up.

The beginning especially. Especially? Hardly. I burst out laughing at
i'm not fond of triscuits.
And then the cats.. and their upsetting 'deposits'…

 A unique voice – one I'd read anytime about anything.

Love,
Sandra

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Tawny, yes, another wonderful example of not truly bad TBW.

I liked these lines (connected) in particular:

this is really very therapeutic and it's odd whtat writin gcan do when you let it just spill out of you adn don't give yoruself time to go back and correct or make sure that what you've writtn wisn't stupid or completely unreadlalbe.  cathartic.  that's what it is and i'm in lvoe with that word.  cathartic.  did i spell it right?  it doesn't matter.  i lvoe other words to.  i'm not a one word kind of girl.  i have an open relationship with words.  my words on the side are twilight, surrender, free, damask, alabaster, cacophony…that one probably isn't spelled right eitehr.

Especially this part: i'm not a one word kind of girl.  i have an open relationship with words.

You know, it's funny about the triscuits. I've felt that too, that I want to like them, as opposed to really liking them. I wonder why that is?

Lovely to read your writing.

Ruth

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Thanks so much to everyone for all the kind words!  I'm so happy to have found Diving Deeper.  All these amazing and varied voices just lying around for me feast my eyes upon!  I could spend all day just sitting here reading.  It's like peeking into the souls of strangers and seeing so much there that is so recognizeable.

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Zippety-do-dah, zippety-hey, my-o-my what a wonderful day!

This is like the Triscut of my dreams. Too bad I already like them, or I could decide to like them and I would! Finally getting to decide something that actually happens. (…)

I keep hoping you get worse and worse at this, Tawny. I'm not sure whether I've seen you or not in DD before, being of unsound mind and even worse body, but you rock my world with your truth. Or your character's truth in this case, which may have some similaritude with the former, in a damask or chocolate way.

If your character enjoys being addicted to things, you might suggest Sandra. Sandra is even better than chocolate.

I know what she means about hating one's own voice. Like listening to a recording: Eewww, that's me? My character does exactly the same thing. Except he utilizes what may be termed post-hate. During the writing, if it's going well, and directly after, while twiddling around with the words to get them even more perfect, he is head-in-heels in love with his own voice, could read it over and over. It's only later, when he listens to the recording so to speak, that he goes eewww, who is this lunatic insane crazy person with bad taste and a reckless hungering ego?

Thank goodness they're just characters, huh?

Looking forward with bright alacrity to more of your unfinished gemstones, dear Tawny. Crystals that are grown from the heart. They don't need cutting but sparkle with a singular brilliance already. In all the colors and sounds.

Remember it doesn't matter what we like. We like what you like. If you like ellipses, so be it. If you like overusing stuff - sweet! We are totally down with likeage of all kinds. The free like zone.

i know somebody else who likes cats. Start a cat thread. Cat poetry only. Be you. That is what we hunger for, to see someone with the courage to be herself in public. Then maybe we can do it too.

Too bad about the math. Do what I do. Only count to one.

Love & Peace,

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