Confused

I have a boyfriend I've been with for four years, he loves me a lot and has the future planned out for us.  I feel we are a good match, but something is missing and I never knew what it was untill I met this one guy.  This guy shows me affection, cares for me and I can talk to him about anything and I don't even have to say a word, because he is totaly thinking the same things.  I've started to have dreams about this new guy, about him telling me he loves me and wants to be wtih me forever, like a fantasy, yet this guy does not want a relationship.  He appears to be all I've ever wanted, but he cannot give me a relationship or my dreams.  Instead all he gives me is what he can, as he says, a good time everynight.  I enjoy it and can't wait for it everynight, but in return I feel bad about my boyfriend who doesn't know what is going on, but I'm affraid to hurt him.  I don't know what to do.

~Anonymous

Re: Confused

!~Smiles~! A classic case of a uPsIDE down pineapple cake!

My last relationship I was with Prince Charles… but I wanted Lancelot.  I did what any rational individual would do …i started an on going relationship thinking that i could keep these separate entities apart.  Who said you can't have your cake and eat it too never had a (uPsIDE down pineapple cake).

Lancelot was wonderful but he was all about pleasure and not happiness, nothing long term.
It could have developed into something more but who knows…  There was Charles offering me the world and although every instinct in my body told me to be a good girl and do whats right!

For the first time i knew exactly what i didn't want… I didn't want Charles anymore because i knew a different attraction that seemed more valuable that the one i had with Charles. When Lans left I no longer was capable of loving Charles the way i use to so pure and whole heartedly. I was filled with guilt for not ever regretting meeting Lancelot. That's why a pineapple upside down cake must be flipped…cause things are never going to be the same again.