Fear

Hi group.
I think that fear has been one of the big issues in my life.
Fear of people and what they might think of me.
Fear of God.
Fear of my own thinking. Somewhere in my life I let my ego take over and I turned my back on a loving God and in time didn't love myself. My character defects grew and I became a very miserable person full of anger and an unreal perspective of reality. I blamed everything and everyone for my own misery. The fear of not being good enough, to be loved. I learned to forgive myself and make amends to the people in my life. I asked God to forgive me and show me a path to follow. I am grateful that I have been shown a way to live where I do not have to hide my feelings and my inner being from God and others. I've only been free of alcohol a short time in comparison to when I was drinking. I have felt a spiritual change that has let me accept life as it is and has allowed me to ask for help and to try to help others. I am by no means religious but I am living today to have a personal relationship with the spirit in all things. That spirit in all things to me is God. This group and the Zaadzsters here have helped me and I think that we can - change the world. I think I still have a lot to learn but at least now I know that I can learn and I can change and I can love. Life is good and I'm not so scared anymore.

Moving from Darkness to Light
Chuck

Re: Fear

Thank you, Chuck, for telling your story here. There is much power in the telling of our stories. I joined this pod just now after reading our post and being moved by it.

I consider myself a  shadow walker / warrior and think that this pod of all Z pods is perhaps the best place to explore what that means and the impact being a shadow warrior has–and can have—on our fate and that of our planet…(people can actually get trained and certified to be a shadow warrior and conduct workshops and do private sessions to assist others on their walks through the darkness, maybe i will do that one day)

meanwhile, I have slowly been sharing some of my tragic stories on my Z blog that are excerpts from a memoir i am slowly writing…I  am finding it interesting that one story that is perticularly tragic and unusual (a friend murdered by cops while seeking sanctuary ina church) has had over 50 readers yet not one comment. that fact also led me to this pod where maybe people will respond…not attached to that outcome on that story nor hosting expectations, just open to the possibilities and see this place as another opportunity to give of myself.

we all have our stories, and of course it is how we draw and grow from them and change our perpectives on them so we arent fixated on the storylines to dicate who we are today. the choice is awesome! and i choose love over fear, may we all continue to be liberated from fear. it may save our lives as it could have my soulmate friend woody's…

Re: Fear

To both of you, thank you for sharing what you did.  I hope you return as I would like the dialogue to continue.

To all others…join in and let's see what we can break down, down deep.  We certainly have ground to cover and I can't think of a better place.

Re: Fear

It never goes away, this factor of fear.  In my arrogant moments, I believe I have no fear.  Then a condition comes up, some part of my daily living, and I realize I am only barely balanced between a woman living in faith and a woman living in fear. 
Is faith the counter to fear?  I always assumed it was love.  Perhaps faith is a condition of love?  Perhaps all this thinking about the formula feeds fear itself - the fear of not knowing the answer.  What if there isn't one?  What if all this postulation is mere folly?  A futile exercise for mini minds.