Cries for help

I sit here, heart broken and shivering. Shivering in spite of the roaring fire in front of me, draped in a blanket. Staring into the flames and listening to the waves licking the shore. Digesting the news that my friend Astrid jumped from her building in Amsterdam, and managed to call the ambulance herself. This happened early Sunday morning. She has a four month old baby boy and she had more then she could chew. She tried her best to communicate her suicidal thoughts and ask for help. She was turned away. (Hospital policy - suicidal thoughts alone are not enough of an indication for an overnight. Here, take some pills).

Astrid, I remember your baby's cry on my niece's birthday. It was a cry for help. It was an alarm that did not go unnoticed. Sending him soothing pink rays of Light. He is so loved. There is a huge part of you that loves him more than you may know.

Astrid, true and constant friend. I am with you and am watching you, awed by the path you chose to grow. I am watching you grow, and crying with you through the heart break.

I am rooting for you to find your way through it all. With the grace I have always seen in you - in the way you move, physically, emotionally, spiritually. And in the sound of your voice, gentle and deep, soulful.

I trust that there is a huge part of you (and it is huge) that is alive and wants to see you grow through this. Whether or not you walk again may well be your choice. Or not. Grow through it you can. And you are.

Sending you soothing pink rays of Light. The vibration of unconditional love. I've been feeling you receiving it, letting it in, allowing it to settle. Cry, cry those  tears that were held back and nearly drowned you, but never quite could because you are stronger, as you have proven beyond a doubt.

I cry out to the Universe now, silent soulful tears. Turn them into soothing pink liquid Light, along with rays of blue, violet, and green Light to touch and pass through Astrid, Fabio, Cas and all concerned. To provide healing and guidance. All to serve the best interest and the best possible result for ALL concerned.

Namaste.

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ooohh, that's sad. We weep with her, and we weep with those who make choices to learn their lessons the hard way. The ones whose patience has ran out and who's fortune has not been of luck, but of constant struggle to find a balance point.

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Thanks so much Ryon, for your presence here. I'm no longer shivering. Just listening and letting your words of compassion settle in my bones.

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Dear friend, I am in loving light with you, as you radiate it out to Astrid, her family and loved ones and all those who are connected to her.

thank you for reaching out.

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Dear Meenakshi,

Thank you for being who you are, doing what you do. Your infinite vibrant Light is much appreciated.

In gratitude
;-o

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Dear Nell, I am very sorry for the heartbroken state of mind that your friend
Astrid has recently been in. I join you in visualizing her and her loved ones being
being surrounded by The Beautiful Pastel, Pink Light Of Unconditional Love, and
Healimg. Surely Love Heals All Things! Kevin

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Kevin,

Thank you for your presence, and for this reminder. Just took a dive into “The Beautiful Pastel, Pink Light Of Unconditional Love, and Healing. Surely Love Heals All Things!” Passing it on.

Thank you, thank you, thank you. Feeling much calmer.

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Astrid is most definitely going to walk again. That is the prognosis, and she is facing everything like the peaceful warrior she is.

And now that I now she's going to recover, I am falling apart. I completely let emotions take over and my nerves are raging through me. I stretched out on the trampoline today, looking at clouds overhead rushing by, and the wind picking up, leaves gently falling upon us. A hawk circling around right but high above us. So much excitement and electricity in the air. Same thing was happening, I noticed, to my nerves, they too were rushing through me with the same speed as the clouds were moving. And it's alright.

How exhausting, my mind keeps coming back with all sorts of perspectives on how my husband runs away from me when going through a rough time. And while I”m at it. Astrid has a much rougher road to recovery ahead of her right now.

Shut up, mind. Be brilliant when it counts, but for now: SHUT UP! Wrote a letter to my husband that explains what I need right now and specifically tells him how he can be there for me. And now I have to get the boys ready for Halloween. Trick or treat. I'll get into it somehow. For them.

Thankful for this spot in the Universe where I can reflect. Most grateful for the way Astrid is facing it all, and that she will walk again! I can completely understand why she jumped. She wanted to be back in touch with her soul through shattering and breaking some bones that most certainly happened. Not for the faint of heart, as it is a very painful process. Still, bone tissue is most definitely connected with the soul. I can imagine Astrid wishing right now she had figured out some other way to focus on her bones/soul connection.

I keep sending you Loving Light, Astrid. And in my eyes you are GREAT, God(des)like, Radiant, Eternal, Awake, Transcendence.

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Change your words and everyone else's words into ENERGY. Change your thoughts into FEELINGS instead of substantially sound perceptions and ultimatums. Touch your third eye with your fingers, then, bring all thoughts down into the solar plexus which is the 'organ of the mind', place your hands over that area, and store the energy there.

Remember who you are. A true and unique expression of the ONE creator.  We are part of the earth in these bodies, these vehicle's for God's experience. The mother has been going through some pain and some changes and some revelations recently. We are one with her and we weep too, with her. She needs us to REMEMBER that we are unique expressions of the ONE, walking the planet, in service to the ONE GOD.

It's almost a FULL MOON! We are wrapping this up tonight, and it will be full tomorrow. We are going into some new energies. The Mayan Calendar will be changing on November 8th, so tune in! Be ENERGY and speak ENERGY. There's nothing else. We must not look for the WORDS that people say but the ENERGY behind them.

Blessings to you all~

Namaste