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Just thought I'd update everyone on Holosync. It's been about 3 months since I started working with this.
Some days I can really see where it is helping and then some days I scratch my head as I'm beating it up against the wall. In the holosync program, Bill Harris talks about all of this and that it is natural and a normal part of the process. Alot of it has to do with learning how to accept what is coming up and letting it go which is very difficult for most people to do including myself. His support letters that come out seemed to be very well timed and his support staff have been very helpful as well.
The one thing I do notice is that my good days (and there are more of these) are much better. The good days are deeper, fuller, more complete. They do seem to be more numerous than the bad days.
I've noticed that being in crowds of people is not as frightening as it once was and my anxiety levels are down. I still am on guard most of the time, but not as much as I once was.
Being in traffic isn't as difficult as it was and I'm able to just stay more calm than I once could.
Dealing with life's daily little turd balls seems to be not as exhausting or difficult as it once was. It is like I have more capacity to do this.
Patience levels are increasing. Although at times I have hardly any patience for anything, I do find that the days where I can be patient, it is a much more calming sense of patience I have.
I find that my mind is beginning to ask some of the hard questions in life that I've needed to ask and it is like I'm able to more accept some of the answers although none of that may be easy.
There are layers to my life that are being uncovered and giving me insights into parts of the universe that I never acknowledged.
My financial situation has changed and while I still have struggles in that area, I am able to accept more of it and release it rather than just being in confrontation with it.
My senses are awakening more where my ears pick up very slight sound and my eyes see light in an entirely different way.
I feel as if I am able to allow things to move through me more rather than hanging on to them for dear life. I'm learning so much about accepting and releasing of so much in my life.
My dreams have increased and have actually been dreams that maybe shed light on my life not just fear and horrors. The dreams are vivid enough that I can actually now remember them.
On the other side, I feel like a truckload of stuff on a long freight train is still coming my way. There just seems to be an almost endless supply of stuff to accept and release. Letting it go and releasing it is the good part as I've been seeing but it doesn't make it easy. Some days I wake up pretty irritable from it all and some days I just want to be left the h*ll alone. Some days I get so angry that I even have to deal with as much as I've dealt with.
But then come the good days when I've gotten to the point I can release and let these things go. Those are the good days that help me continue when I go through the bad days. I'm seeing so much more awaken and open up in my life and seem to be looking more forward than in reverse. I can feel these things come up through my body and as I acknowledge them, I can feel myself letting them go as they exit from my body. All in all I'd say this is a good thing.
Where I will level off with this program, I'm not sure. There are further steps if a person wishes and I haven't made the decision if I will continue on those steps or not. I'm not at that point to make that decision. I just know that it is having positive impacts on my life and I don't want to stop yet!
I have found that when I do this early in the morning it just seems to work easier for me. I have the headphones and ipod close to my bed so when I first wake up, I put these on, lay back down and go to sleep. It doesn't get any easier than that! An hour later, I wake up and it pretty much wakes me up when it is done. I was trying to do it later in the day but found that I was frustrated because it seemed like it split up my day to much. Doing it at this time of day for me just works better.
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