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So, what do you think is the most difficult feeling for you to have? What is the one feeling you avoid at all costs? Has that feeling ever gone away or dissipated by avoiding it?
I make every attempt not to avoid the onset of any feeling. When the negative arrives, I make a point to watch it arrive -and watch it go away again just as quickly. Thus is the nature of all things and thus, per practice, is the only way we can come to understand the entirety of things.
When negative emotion arises it is best to grab hold of it, look into it, study it; break it down into its composites and come to an understanding of its origins and roots. When one finds such roots; like an Axe or hatchet your awareness will swoop down and sever the detrimental emotion as if a hot knife through butter.
On a more personal note, that which I have confronted most often in my career as a human, of late, is jealousy. It is jealousy founded on absolutely nothing, in the real world; it is entirely the product of illusion. The fear of abandonment. The imagined moment when my wife is stolen away from me by some handsome millionaire in an Italian sports car. You know. Stupid shit.
This as I say is founded on nothing but the moist and fertile grounds for suffering so plentiful in this world of illusion. I trust my wife, she trusts me. But when you have so much trust -and love- the ego is free to roam both like a ball park. It is both batter and pitcher; or at the table, it is holding all the cards. The stronger something is, in other words, the more determined brother or sister ego is going to be in destroying it.
Cheers.
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