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Outside Integral?Siona said Jan 31, 2007, 10:26 AM: |
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Re: Outside Integral?Julian said Jan 31, 2007, 12:17 PM: |
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Re: Outside Integral?Julian said Feb 1, 2007, 10:59 AM: |
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i have no idea seth - weigh in on the actual conversation and i'll be sure to let you know…. :O) |
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Re: Outside Integral?_ [no longer around] said Feb 1, 2007, 12:17 PM: |
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Julian, was that not weighing in on the conversation? Or was it just not weighing in on the conversation to your standards?
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Re: Outside Integral?Siona said Jan 31, 2007, 2:25 PM: |
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Thanks, Julian. I'll keep trying. ;) |
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Re: Outside Integral?WH said Feb 1, 2007, 3:41 PM: |
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I'm jumping in here without having read the whole thread, so someone may have already addressed this, but … . |
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Re: Outside Integral?Keith said Feb 1, 2007, 11:38 AM: |
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Julian: “clearly blastocysts become embryos become infants become toddlers become children become teenagers become adults, yes?” |
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Re: Outside Integral?ebuddha said Feb 1, 2007, 4:31 PM: |
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To Julian's initial response to Siona - A quick take, which I may have to backtrack on - but you seem to be confusing development with heirarchy. |
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Re: Outside Integral?marigpa said Jan 31, 2007, 1:08 PM: |
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Hey Siona, glad you've started this thread and am happy to copy that post here …. and maybe I could give a little context for my earlier *existential funk*. * * * * * * * * *
Hey Siona, I'm finding this conversation useful and intriguing in equal measure and suspect it could well merit its own thread. Could you say more about ” … what and who is necessarily left out of the Integral project ” and how you see that happening? …. I'm not doubting you, I feel uneasy myself sometimes, but because I'm still strugling to see let alone hold the W5 “bigger picture” I think I need help distinguishing what my concerns actually are before I can get clear on how valid they might be. I'm in a bit of an existential funk today and am struggling to articulate anything …. but fortunately I came across this review of Integral Spirituality on Amazon that articulates very well some of my own concerns (and maybe some of yours too). I've italicised the part that really resonated for me. I have read just about all of Wilber's material and find him extremely insightful, needless to say. But I continue to have certain major reservations. First, is “enlightenment” the goal of all religous/spiritual paths? Wilber talks only or almost exclusively of the “contemplative/medative traditions”.The implication being that “spirituality” only occurs primarily between the alone and the Alone or is primarily an “intellective”(cognitive)spirituality. When he discusses the Judeo/Christian tradition he points to the contemplative traditions within them (Father Keating, e.g.) but never addresses the essence of the tradition itself. Surely Kabbalah and the mystical/monastic tradition in Christianity are not the heart and soul of these traditions although they might fall within the broad scope of their historical manifestations. I would like to imagine a conversation, e.g. of Ken Wilber with Marin Buber, Emmanuel Levinas,along with a liberation theologian like Sebastian Kappen S.J. and a poltical theologican as Johann Baptist Metz. I don't believe these religious teachers would primarily approach the Judeo/Christian tradition as a contemplative tradition. Rather was not Jesus a prophet in very much the style of the Hebrew prophets? And was the practice of Jesus and the Prophets not primarily monastic meditation but an immersion in the sufferings of the people of their day? Was not service the primary praxis? This does not deny the need for prayer or contemplation but it does not isolate this practice either as the quintessential praxis of the Hebrew or Jesus's way of life. When Wilber discusses the “Spirit in 2nd Person” he points to only the “alone with the Alone” version. This is not the Judeo/Christian approach. Rather it is through service to our brothers and sisters in the world that we encounter the great Mystery, the great Thou. The ego purification comes about not primarily in one's solitude but rather in one's ego being rubbed raw in the existential immersion in the pain of the world.The dark night of the soul comes about in the midst of the world as it did for Jesus and the prophets. As Abraham Heschel once wrote: “The more deeply immersed I become in thinking of the prophets, the more powerfully it became clear to me what the lives of the prophets sought to convery: that morally speaking there is no limit to the concern one must feel for the suffering of human beings.” It would seem to me that if we look at Jesus's parable of the Good Samaritan as pointing to the very essence of his way, could we not say that we could have all the highest states, all the highest stage persectives, and the deepest of awareness and yet walk right by the man in the ditch fully AQAL-ed (so to speak). In Wilber's scheme maybe we could say that the Judeo/Christian tradition prioritizes the moral/ethical line as well as emphasing the exterior doing of a way along with the interior growth of the inner person? Wilber once made the comment that a spiritual path could arise in any one of the four quadrants. And yet he exclusively focuses on quadrant one. Could we not say that the Judeo/Christian spirituality arises in quadrants 3 and 4 (compassion -3; and justice-4?)I would be very interested in a Wilberian's response to these queries. |
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Re: Outside Integral?maryw said Jan 31, 2007, 1:40 PM: |
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(( A minor tangential response to the Amazon.com review Lol posted above: I see a lot of people who presume that contemplative Christianity, and other contemplative traditions, are all about “being alone,” remaining still in the silence, praying by one's self, going to the mountaintop, achieving certain states of consciousness, etc. This is not true, from what I have seen. Contemplation and meditation should not be divorced from service to others and from being immersed in the sufferings of the day – “contemplation” and “action” are not two separate and opposed pursuits, but rather two aspects of the same movement, like resting and working, breathing in and exhaling. Both are necessary, in a similar way that sleep and refreshment are necessary to our waking hours. The Jesus who is revealed in the Gospels had a very active, prophetic and healing ministry, but is also described as taking time to be alone, to be away from the crowds, to commune with “the Father.” Jesus also advised “going into one's private room” and praying to God “In secret” during his Sermon on the Mount in Matthew 6:6 ….. I could go on and on about this but I'll stop here! |
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Re: Outside Integral?Siona said Jan 31, 2007, 2:52 PM: |
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Re: Outside Integral?Julian said Jan 31, 2007, 3:23 PM: |
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My deeper personal interest is making sure that I stay in touch enough with myself so that I can fully be with others and, hopefully, encourage them to be more fully themselves, to more deeply connect to who they are, and to be who they are in this present moment, as they stand in relation to both themselves and the world at large right now. I don't have any desire to “develop” them or me; I'd rather encourage our mutual expression – independently or collaboratively. (It's this sort of authentic and enjoyable play that I find much more important, in both the short and the long run, than struggling toward some promised endpoint of nondual awareness.) |
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Re: Outside Integral?Siona said Jan 31, 2007, 4:26 PM: |
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Re: Outside Integral?Julian said Jan 31, 2007, 5:49 PM: |
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Oh Siona! I wish you were arguing! |
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Re: Outside Integral?Siona said Jan 31, 2007, 6:18 PM: |
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Ai. My point is that Integral is necessarily blinkered in its assumptions, and that I have yet to be persuaded that hierarchies are not inherently pathological (that is, dominating.) Furthermore, if spirituality is evolutionary, than it should proceed, as biological evolution has done, along all manner of nuanced trajectories and different paths, and should look different depending on where it arises; we might be able to say what one evolutionary branch looks like, but we can't extrapolate to all cases. I'm not sure that the totalizing view of Integral allow for this (or these) option(s). |
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Re: Outside Integral?cree said Jan 31, 2007, 7:33 PM: |
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Siona:
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Isn't it also possible to grade and rank without arbitrary absolutes,invoked or otherwise? I certainly know that hierarchies can be used to oppress. But for me, the Integral use of heirarchies is more like a sublime filing system.
I benefit from it immensely because to paraphrase KW, it helps form holarchies - the “nested” nature of holons, where one holon can be considered as part of another- “I am often asked, why even attempt an integration of the various worldviews? Isn't it enough to simply celebrate the rich diversity of various views, and not try to integrate them? Well, recognising diversity is certainly a noble endeavour, and I heartily support that pluralism. But if we remain merely at the stage of celebrating diversity, we are ultimately promoting fragmentation, alienation, separation. You go your way, I go my way, we both fly apart - which is often what has happened under the reign of the pluralistic relativists, who have left us a post-modern Tower of Babel on too many fronts. It is not enough to recognise the many ways in which we are all different; we need to go further and start recognising the many ways that we are also similar. Otherwise we simply contribute to heapism, not wholism. Building on the rich diversity offered by pluralistic relativism, we need to take the next step and weave those many strands into a beautiful web of unifying connections, an interwoven tapestry of mutual intermeshing. We need, in short, to move from pluralistic relativism to universal integralism - we need to keep trying to find the One-in-the-Many that is the form of the Kosmos itself.” Ken Wilber - Collected Works - Introduction to Volume 8
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Re: Outside Integral?Siona said Feb 1, 2007, 11:03 AM: |
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Re: Outside Integral?Keith said Feb 1, 2007, 12:29 PM: |
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Sonia: “Furthermore, if spirituality is evolutionary, than it should proceed, as biological evolution has done, along all manner of nuanced trajectories and different paths, and should look different depending on where it arises; we might be able to say what one evolutionary branch looks like, but we can't extrapolate to all cases.” |
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Re: Outside Integral?Keith said Feb 1, 2007, 12:23 PM: |
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Julian, is it necessary to draw lines or to make objective sense of everything? |
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Re: Outside Integral?Siona said Feb 1, 2007, 12:33 PM: |
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Re: Outside Integral?Keith said Feb 1, 2007, 12:08 PM: |
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Sonia: “As an aside, I didn't mean for my little story to be universalized . I don't think being in touch with myself or supporting others is “more evolved” than not doing so. I was just clarifying my personal position – I thought it would be helpful for you to know where I was coming from. Because, again, I'm can't be remotely sure that my stance is “healthy” or desirable. It's just where I happen to be right now.” |
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Re: Outside Integral?Siona said Feb 1, 2007, 12:49 PM: |
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Re: Outside Integral?Keith said Feb 1, 2007, 12:16 PM: |
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Sonia: “You asked, how is the notion that evolution is “going somewhere” pathological? I'm not sure how I can make it more clear. A pathological holon is, according to Wilber, one that is abusing its power of upward or downward causation. Adopting an ideology of growth and attempting to direct that anywhere outside one's own holonic domain amounts to usurping that holon's position in system, no? How is that NOT pathological?” |
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Re: Outside Integral?Siona said Feb 1, 2007, 12:43 PM: |
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Re: Outside Integral?Keith said Feb 1, 2007, 11:59 AM: |
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Julian: “everything is going somehwere” |
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Re: Outside Integral?Jane said Feb 1, 2007, 5:29 AM: |
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Well, Integral by definition encompasses the whole ball game, though the map is not complete yet. I think what is less clear in Wilberian theory is how states of 'dissonance' and 'down' move into states of 'resonance' and 'opening up'….. there is a continual birthing process in which none of us can see the whole picture. So what looks very bad may be very good and vice versa and vice versa again. Being closed down, abused, abusive and paralysed in fear is not a positive or joyful state and yet in the compost barrel of life this negative state can become its opposite, sometimes in a flash…just like I can change my mind……anything polarized to its extreme state may start to conjure the conditions of its release into the opposite..(I say 'may' because there are very dark places and I have peered down some black holes and I don't know, indeed, if we are going to make it out of our present trend….I really don't know) Still, we have heroic examples from the history of the universe where, clever as can be, and at the end of the rope, pa-ding–the waste products of one process become the substrate for the next….falling and catching, falling and catching….dancing…spiralling through space… I know that there are benefits to meditation and moving along the x axis of the states. At the same time, the trauma and the grind of day to day living give us the conditions that we need and that are also essential to position us to choose to become centered and present in our own lives. And if those conditions are so horrible and they are for many people that they are overwhelming individual survivabililty, then they are creating a disruption on a larger front that must be addressed, ie) terrorism, poverty, world ecosystem degradation. |
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Re: Outside Integral?Julian said Feb 1, 2007, 10:58 AM: |
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siona, pick a line any line. |
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Re: Outside Integral?Siona said Feb 1, 2007, 11:52 AM: |
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Re: Outside Integral?Julian said Feb 1, 2007, 3:36 PM: |
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siona simple questions: |
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Re: Outside Integral?Siona said Feb 1, 2007, 12:57 PM: |
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Re: Outside Integral?cree said Feb 1, 2007, 1:45 PM: |
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The Two Truth's Doctrine |
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Re: Outside Integral?marigpa said Feb 1, 2007, 11:54 AM: |
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Mary: “A minor tangential response to the Amazon.com review Lol posted above: I see a lot of people who presume that contemplative Christianity, and other contemplative traditions, are all about “being alone,” remaining still in the silence, praying by one's self, going to the mountaintop, achieving certain states of consciousness, etc. This is not true, from what I have seen. Contemplation and meditation should not be divorced from service to others and from being immersed in the sufferings of the day –“ I'm right with you there, Mary. There was a time not so long ago when the actual practice of putting the time in cultivating a meditation practice was seemingly being challenged …. people weren't being out there enough in the world 'doing good deeds', and Engaged Buddhism for one had its profile raised. I’ve been searching for a post (but can’t find it) where, if my memory serves me well, someone was saying that meditation (and I may be wrong but I seem to remember the context being of non-dual awareness) really belonged in, in the sense of being restricted to, the UL quadrant …. and I remember then thinking of the interdependence of everything, that it’s not just a mind having a subjective phenomenological experience, but there’s also a body sitting in my case in a room, on the floor, the floor itself raised a little off the moist earth, with chattering jays flying from tree to tree outside the window and a spider in the corner straining to reach a tiny fly that’s seemingly nonchalantly wandering over the glass surface, barely out of reach. To whatever degree I manage to stabilise this contemplation I’ve hopefully been deepening into, the real practice is bringing that with me off the meditation cushion and into my everyday interactions with the world, people, different circumstances …. can I remain present to / in that natural state whilst interacting with the postman or my landlady or my son …. can I integrate all this interaction into the natural state? If I can, then this for me is profoundly integral, and every such interaction is sacred and in its own way ‘being in service’ …. It’s like being in service to life, and I genuinely believe this being somehow permeates everything, and the more we all practice this or similar the more we profoundly impact the world we live in. Small is beautiful. Siona: “To that end, the more emphatically Integral claims to include everything, the more danger there is in shutting down authentic inquiries. For me, a truly Integral approach would be one built the notions of opening and investigation – with an eye (or heart) toward acknowledging and holding the suffering and experiences of all earthy beings – and not hierarchy and maps.” “Again, what's healthy and normal now may not be healthy and normal in the future, correct? This can be read in all manner of different ways, but I don't mean it in the “getting stuck” way; I mean it more in the sense that the traits and behaviors that serve an organism in one environment and in one context may not serve them in another. What's healthy in one situation may be drastically harmful in another. Evolution merely describes a process, not a direction. (And yes, there are entirely lines that evolved to become more simple forms.)” “My point is that Integral is necessarily blinkered in its assumptions, and that I have yet to be persuaded that hierarchies are not inherently pathological (that is, dominating.) Furthermore, if spirituality is evolutionary, than it should proceed, as biological evolution has done, along all manner of nuanced trajectories and different paths, and should look different depending on where it arises; we might be able to say what one evolutionary branch looks like, but we can't extrapolate to all cases. I'm not sure that the totalizing view of Integral allow for this (or these) option(s).” I love what you’re exploring on this thread … and the approach you’re taking, which is both ballsy as well as open, sometimes kind of undefended … I think its not only valid in its own right but also needed on this forum, just as much as others’ approaches …. Jane, Balder, Julian to name but a few. I think there can be a tedency to present the integral vision as a map with a prescribed route, ever onward and upward, and those unfortunate colours further down the spiral are the ones we’re all (or should be) desperately trying to move away from …. and we can repeat the “transcend and include” mantra but so often it doesn’t feel so very inclusive …. in any case, some things are just sooooooo prerational. Maps are useful things, but not necessarily primarily for planning a route from A to B, they also allow us to appreciate the various topographical features … and those features can be interpreted or appreciated in different ways depending on the context. I so valued what Transient had to say on the Pre/Trans thread (here, here, here, here and here in case you missed it, S.). I don’t think what he brought to the table was acknowledged properly or enough – I for one was left in a kind of stupefied open-mouthed admiration that rendered me incapable of saying very much at the time – and I do feel there are things he said in his (fourth of five) second post in response to Julian that still haven’t been addressed. So I’d like to copy a few paragraphs to this thread, because I do think they’re rather relevant. (Julian): i think beyond the catgories is a transcend and include affair. in other words one still has access to the category awareness after transcending it….it doesnt go anywhere and can still be used - in fact even more effectively. (Transient): IMHO - “more effectively” is about seeing categories as partially arbitrary, secondary overlays artificially dividing a unified reality. There are no prerational forms, rational forms or transrational forms in existence prior to our categorizations. Our categorizations are artificial forms arising out of worldviews. The whole pre/trans matrix is based on a specific Wilberian worldview. The categories might or might not be useful in a given situation, but they are not accurate descriptions of a-priori reality. Transrational cognition is transcognitive in a sense. It is able to navigate through multiple worldviews and paradigms, including the AQAL paradigm and the Bleep paradigm, and the spirit-guide-new-age paradigm, and the reductive materialist paradigm, etc. It may use many different paradigms to evaluate forms, ways and means within each current context it finds itself in. There might be great value in a shared interpretation of disembodied spirits in one context, and not in another, depending on what is being served in a given situation. Transrational spirituality is paradoxical to the rational mind, yet simple of flex and flow. It moves out of and beyond rationality by moving into and through currents of feeling/thought, including what you might categorize as “prerational affect”. The currents of thought/feeling are tightly interwoven, and what might be usefully categorized as prerational one moment might be be usefully apprehended as rational or transrational the next…or even more usefully, not evaluated in this way at all. and (Julian): can you differentiate what you are saying in your last couple paragraphs from a merely pluralistic green stance? (Transient): I've already made a gesture in that direction with the somatic bits. Now the multiple paradigm angle. A “merely pluralistic green stance” as I understand it, is about an absolute relativism. What I'm talking about is a relative relativism. ~:o) You use the phrase “unconditional embrace” in your next question. That about says it right there. It's interesting that you would read that into my intent. “Unconditional” is about as far from my meaning as you can get. A transrational embodied cognition has the capacity to adopt multiple perspectives as we all know. To me this means not just the Wilberian 1st 2nd 3rd 4th etc, but also the multiple paradigms referred to in his integral methodological pluralism. Flex and flow means moving within the current context. If the only context you ever find yourself in is Wilberian-integral, then you don't get much opportunity to practice. If you only make use of the values of one paradigm, you get plenty of chances to dis other competing paradigms, and you're not demonstrating transrational cognition IMHO. This doesn't mean unconditional acceptance of all paradigms, worldviews, values ect as equal, but rather context dependent. See the difference? Contexts within contexts within contexts within contexts, and all with relative values. (Julian): how do you reconcile healthy critical thinking and the compassionate desire to identify and heal pathology with what you seem to be saying is the transrationasl abiliity to embrace the new age stuff uncondtionally? (Transient): By practicing trust in the body's wisdom. Healing pathology is not the business of the critical mind IMHO. The disembodied critical mind can be useful at times for discerning practical modalities, and useful for evaluating results, but not so good at diagnosis and prescription. Healing is inherently a mystery, and feeling-based. I would say even love-based. The disembodied critical mind is more often than not at odds with this approach. All the more so when that function or capacity is being used as a dissociative device, and an identity.
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Re: Outside Integral?Siona said Feb 1, 2007, 2:10 PM: |
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“The buddha was once threatened with death by a bandit called Angulimal. But there seems something to this, no? Creating and healing, to my mind, is not something that can be done, or that can be forced or prescribed, but that must be allowed. Does anyone believe otherwise? I'm trying to tie in, again, the values of opening and questioning and letting go with the idea of healing, given that health and pathology seem to be recurring themes. Is this sparking anything? |
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Re: Outside Integral?marigpa said Feb 1, 2007, 3:37 PM: |
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It's getting a bit too close to the winding-down, clearing-the-mind and preparing for that mysterious journey into the Land of Nod (on this side of the pond at least) to get into a lengthy response …. |
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Re: Outside Integral?Umguy said Feb 1, 2007, 3:58 PM: |
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Re: Outside Integral?Siona said Feb 1, 2007, 4:39 PM: |
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Re: Outside Integral?Umguy said Feb 1, 2007, 4:55 PM: |
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You said: “Hm. I wouldn't see that so much as a hierarchy as a deepening of compassion.” |
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Re: Outside Integral?Umguy said Feb 1, 2007, 6:23 PM: |
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Yeah, functional is an important. |
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Re: Outside Integral?Keith said Feb 1, 2007, 8:29 PM: |
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Sonia: “How do you know these advancements weren't the result of more people being invited to wake up to their humanity?” |
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Re: Outside Integral?Keith said Feb 1, 2007, 8:23 PM: |
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Umguy: “As for the idea of those at the top telling other folks how they should be… haven't most really great advancements in civilization, like say extending rights, ending the slave trade, etc, come about orginally because a fairly small group of people were determined to raise the bar of care and concern?” |
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Re: Outside Integral?Umguy said Feb 1, 2007, 9:00 PM: |
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Re: Outside Integral?Keith said Feb 2, 2007, 7:03 AM: |
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Umguy: “Given what you argue is it possible we're still going to screw up, do something like ruin the planet and all die off? Does this go back to relative vs. absolute. In absolute terms that would be fine, it's as it should be, thou will be done. Relatively speaking it would really suck and would be better for all of us if we didn't let it happen. ” |
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Re: Outside Integral?Siona said Feb 2, 2007, 8:22 AM: |
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Re: Outside Integral?Siona said Feb 2, 2007, 8:11 AM: |
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Keith: This is tangential, but Mushin has a beautiful post on his blog about the cause and effect issue that I certainly enjoyed reading. ”So beings move in concert – sometimes cacaphonically, sometimes polyphonically and sometimes symphonically, to differentiate a few of the many ways of relating between entities, beings and the whole. And when one looks in the cause and effect-way one takes a slice out of this resounding story to, maybe, know what to do. But looking at it as if the kosmos (signifying ‘harmonious whole’) were a concert one rather asks, how to be, how to sound right now. In the cause & effect world there are laws. In the world of kosmic concert there are repeating melodies, rhythms and rhymes… which is why I’ve come to prefer that myth over the deterministic one.” And about Trasient's point above loving unconditionally … I like your reading, and I'd wonder whether it also means that the practice of loving unconditionally is conditional; that it's as possible to have “idiot love” (as Brian put it) as it is ”idiot compassion.” Hm. Upon reflecting a bit more, though, I think the way you put it includes what I just wrote. Beautiful. |
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Re: Outside Integral?Keith said Feb 1, 2007, 8:37 PM: |
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This was posted on another forum by a friend. I thought it might be relevant to this discussion, as it gets to the point of whether we choose to act or whether action just happens as we accept what is. What I see as a key statement is in bold type. This passage seems to speak in light of value beyond heirarchy, for the sake of Value (aka Love) itSelf! “In the presence of Sangha, in the light of Dharma, in oneness with Buddha - may my path to complete enlightenment benefit everyone!” In this passing moment karma ripens
This life is as real as a dream; –Shodo Harada, Roshi |
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Re: Outside Integral?wolfspirit said Feb 2, 2007, 12:27 PM: |
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Siona: A related response from me to your disdain for labels is here. |
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Re: Outside Integral?Siona said Feb 2, 2007, 2:41 PM: |
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Oh, totally true, Joe! And trust me, I'm well-aware that I'm using all this - and the Integral 'project' as a whole - to wrestle with my own shadow stuff. ;) I know I have baggage around intellectual analysis and labeling and the like, which I've likely not fully forgiven myself for. You've all been fantastic at indulging me and so I'm hoping only that I can begin to return the favor. |
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