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Ok, here's one:
I saw the Secret in early October. Frankly, I ignored the “movie” as it totally violated my standards of storytelling, but I did fix on what seemed like an explication of an implicit reality I had been subliminally aware of all my life. Something just “clicked” in me and I felt intuitively comfortable with the Law, or Principal, from the moment it manifest.
At the same time, I was wary from the beginning about “trying it out” as I had doubts about the ethics/morality of wishing for something, expecting it to come, and not doing anything else but wait. It did not seem to square with the WASP work ethic I grew up with.
So I resolved to learn as much as I could about others reflections and experiences with the “practice.” I read tons on the web and bought the Hick's book The Law of Attraction, despite my skepticism about “channeled” information. I went ahead and read the book, telling myself that what was being said would either make sense or it would not. Well, it made sense to me.
My wariness about beginning any “practice” was rewarded with constant references in LoA, the book, to the absolute importance of sharpening the Point of Attraction - that spot within us where the rubber of intention meets the road of reality.
Putzing around wishing for stuff, would mean, for me at the time, a compromise of my values. So I waited and read, and read some more until I really got the Point of Attraction thing. I realized that, without doing substantial Shadow work, I could have no real confidence in my Point of Attraction's authenticity. Sure, I could fake gratitude. Sure, I have a vivid imagination - but, without a really healthy, integral Point of Attraction, I might wish like a bastard for a billion dollars - and wish and wish and wish until my heart popped - and then it might come, out of a plane in a big bag, right through the roof over my bedroom, crushing me flat on my wishing spot. This I did not want to endure.
So, after another month of study, I realized that a desire I had about a lack in my life, a lack of companionship on the intellectual/spiritual level might be an ok thing to wish for. That the desire was real was evident, that, as I approached the Shadow, I would really benefit from such companionship. I asked a couple of my friends who have routinely put up with my spiritiual/intellectual obsessions if they thought such a wish was pure enough to meet my moral standards. They both said something to the effect of “Oh Jaysus, Michael, just do it already!”
So I did. I began to practice contacting the Point of Attraction, framing the wish and sending it forth with as much gratitude as I could muster. That was in the middle of December. The day after Christmas, I got an invitation to join Zaadz. It did not occur to me at the time that my wish and the invitation had anything to do with each other. That would not come until a month later when, after plowing around Zaadz, through pod after pod, that I discovered I-I. Even then, I still had not made the connection. The connection came one day after I had introduced myself to I-I by fundamentally attacking everyone for their jolly blindness towards the LoA. In the communications that followed, I met Balder, Pelle, MaryW, Mascha, Liz, Arthur, Jane, Ramsses and a dozen others and realized that, for the first time in my life, I had found a group of people with whom I felt safe enough to let my mind expand. I cried about it then and I am crying about it now.
best, Michael
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