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Here’s a little for you to bounce off of…
The very heart of the dark night is organized around this singularity - that which you want to get rid of isn’t going anywhere. The lucidity from which you grasp this and the fullness within which you embody this determines much of what follows in my opinion and practice.
The dark night is at it’s heart despair, which is born from the desire to get rid of something (or if you want to flip that coin - attain something). When everything fails, when in your most honest and awake moments you spontaneously know you are left with failure your body-mind contracts up into your essential wound. The contraction that defines you, makes you and owns you is now consciously in your face and there is absolutely nothing you can do.
While there are many considerations to look at when stepping further into this phase of practice and life, the general prescription is to push into this, because as Terry (and others) presuppose, it is this fertile space that gives birth to that which you seek most desperately to know within.
Personally, in my own experience the dark night never ends and it completely disappears depending on how I want to organize myself and my perspective. I choose to embody the fullness of this contraction and despair and hold the essential liberation that is this. Freedom and Fullness, to embody and enact integral practice you must have both, awareness and embrace they actually require each other.
You are not one, not the other. You fundamentally are not two.
For me, moving into this despair and letting go, this is the work that we’re here to do. This is what it really means to do a set with all of your heart, tears rolling down your cheeks, with a shattering smile of Suchness that allows everything, absolutely everything to be ok just as it is.
This is the path of becoming uniquely you, not ejecting in escape of something or reaching to attain something but not the unconscious attachment to the enveloping immanence of your relative vehicle. You’ll know something is radically different when the contraction that scares you, the knot that is you that you try to manage, control and negotiate with has been transformed into itself. From this perspective, from this embodiment the contraction and limitation of you is the unfolding liberation of your divinity.
Discover this in your breath right now, re-cognize this as you move resistance, realize this and you’ll know your Unique Self - the you that’s always known you ;-)
Big Love,
~Rob
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