purgatory

striving to meet the moment,
every aspect of physical existence
is torment..


reaching out to engage with the
pain that racks my body,
stinging fingers and toes,
rapid heartbeat - aching joints,
monstrous migraine - fevered thoughts
vile taste permeates inner core..


night time falls -
the darkness - each night lasts a lifetime:
tossing and turning,
striving to open to the message,
what is this?


day comes - light assumes
temporary relief..


I stride out through plaited countryside,
attempting to break through the barriers
of bodily incarceration..


I glean some measure of hope from
verdant foliage and glistening sunshine,
altho' still distant, in truth,
from touching what is real out there..


I reach vainly for that refuge of hope
within the outer limits of my patience
and understanding..


I pray that this episode will come
to a fortuitous close -
I regret my selfish indulgence,
yet strive relentlessly
to accept my bitter reality..


I vow to trust in the faith
that assures me redemption is at hand
yet struggle with this,
verily, struggle with this truth..


with bows

Re: purgatory

dearest friend, how I grieve for the fiery trials you are living. I pray for the grace to bear it each day, the healing, light and love to come to a place of peace and relief from suffering.

Hugs,

Nicole