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For months now a member of my family had me convinced that she was in dire financial straits. I had Ram Dass giving me advice on how to help her within a room of 100 or so people. I had visiting lamas staying with me and all I could do was be depressed and ask for their prayers for this relative who I thought was in jeopardy of losing everything. I was sleepless at times, trying to think of ways I could generate more income so that I could help this person, when actually I am just getting by myself. I had even written a story in my mind in which my family was cursed by an unconscious belief in scarcity and I spent a great deal of time trying to find ways of freeing myself from this legacy and laying plans for how I would then teach whatever worked to all my family members when next I would be able to go visit them. It became a focal point in my life for several months.
Then yesterday I was looking at this game that helps people develop meditation abilities but that costs $160. I really don't have the money, but I had enough credit on one of my credit cards that I could buy a copy and was intending to buy it for this relative since she had told me previously that she was unable to meditate. I think that being able to enter the meditative mental state is incredibly important for manifestation work, and meditation practice is the most efficient way of doing that, if you can do it at all, so I had been looking for ways to help her with that for several weeks.
On the verge of spending what for me was a lot of money I don't really have, I decided to give her a call and see if she had listened to either of the recordings I had sent her a week before on coming into full self acceptance and letting go of unconscious guilt, shame and unworthiness. I figured if she hadn't bothered to use what I had already sent, no point in putting out money I might need in the future to pay bills.
Good thing I decided to ask the question! It turned out that not only had she not listened to any of what I had sent in the week she had it, but on top of that – get this – she had decided to take a couple thousand dollars out of her retirement savings to pay off most of the bills that were behind. And she still had tens of thousands of dollars left!
All the time I had been worrying about her, utterly convinced into believing her story of lack to such an extent that I was spreading the story to others, she was sitting on enough money to not only pay off all her debts, including her car loan, and still have thousands of dollars remaining, and I was the one really squeeking by with no savings!
I then came to understand a very different story of my family legacy. It isn't poverty that runs in my family. When I really think about it with this new frame of mind, I see that all my family members own their own homes. They have multiple color TVs. They eat out all the time. Some even have kids in private schools. My family is abundant! It is the story of victimhood and the sense of deprived entitlement that goes with that story that is imprisoning my family. That story had me convinced that this family member's entire life had been one of unfair deprivation by a world that did not value the incredible kindness and long suffering self-sacrifice of this person. I had all kinds of examples built up in my mind to confirm this belief. And it simply WAS NOT TRUE!
My point in sharing this with all of you is this, don't believe the lies your mind is telling you.
You may have a rock solid story built in your mind for lack or whatever limitation you have identified with, but no matter how convincing that story is, that doesn't mean it's true.
Just after I had this awakening moment yesterday I started listening to some other recordings that had been sent to me by Sounds True (they send me a bunch because they like for me to interview their authors on my radio show). This one was by Gary Renard and called “Secrets of the Immortal.” On one of the first couple of disks in the set there is this wonderful meditation in which you place whatever you think you need or want on the altar to God and let God absorb it back into the pure light of its essence, back into God itself. You then allow yourself to dissolve back into that same Source. You then have whatever you gave away because you have become all of who you are, which contains that and all else.
I am going to make that a daily meditation, because I think it is absolutely the essence of manifestation work and spiritual surrender work. If you want it, surrender it to God and surrender yourself to God as well. Don't believe your stories about lack. Those are just false teachings that assume you are a limited being who is separate from God. You are not separate from God, so how could you lack anything? No matter how convincing the stories are, they simply ARE NOT TRUE!
Many blessings to you ~ Skydancer
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