The truth about depression

Re: The truth about depression

My truth about depession is that it is being stuck in resistance to what is and expecting the world to be different. Something like saying: the world shouldn't be like that, my father, who hurt me shouldn't be like that. In other words it would be: “I hate my parents, school, the world the way it is.” Same thing. And another one of the bottom lines in my depression: “if they put me in this world, at least they should take care of me.” Or I will rebel. And so I did. Or tried at least.

These self-pitying beliefs are not conscious, of course, but need to be recognized in a slow process of honesty with oneself, which can only happen, when i am not judging myself. I think that's why it was so important for me to rrecognize the trauma connection. At least I don't have to blame myself for all those negative, “childish” beliefs and attitudes.

It seems that childhood traumas, usually  emotional neglect and abuse through dysfunctional behaviors of parents and environment, set us up to get stuck in these self-blocking attitudes and resistance.

And as Ruskan says in his book on ”Emotional Clearing”: “All pain is caused by resistance.”
 

Re: The truth about depression

    I had this posted on a healers pod, some asked who heals the healers,someone replyed that they will send healing to the healers, and there were others that had replyed but none had said what I did nor did they reply to what I did say. But these healers were not the same as I am because I had never asked to be a healer, I uncovered what I was not and that's what was left, here it is.

       

I have always been interested in “Why do healers die?” I don't believe they all experience death, but why do most?

I had a 60 year old friend tell me that without a doubt he knows his soul purpose here is to heal others. I told him I thought his soul purpose here was to be healed. I told him “the people that we heal are really here to heal us”.. Now I don't know how many times people would ask me for advice and I would give it and then hear that small voice say, “You need to start doing that more yourself”, and I would tell that person what had happened. Today when I help a person I know that they are helping me too. When they say thank you I say, “Thank you. I could not have done it without you.”

I have another friend that is 20 years older than me and she is a master healer. I don't know what all she has learned, anyhow one morning I was thinking about her and picked up the phone and called her. When she answered the phone she said, “Don how did you know to call me?” I said, “I just had a thought to call you so I did.” She asked me if I could send her some energy and I said, “I know I can but tell me how to do it”, and she told me what to do and I did it. Whatever she got I got it first and it was a wonderful experience for both of us. The same thing happen again a year later.

I did not ask to be a healer, maybe I did but I was not aware of what it was I was asking for. I wanted to know why I had never really been happy and I started looking at myself and learned that it is harder to unlearn than to learn.  I was covered up with what I was not. I am not my parents, or their parents etc. As I would let go of who I was not I was uncovering who I AM and then someone told me I was a healer. I really didn't understand why I was a healer! It was a few years before I learned that I was healing, The main reason I am a healer is to be healed. Have you ever heard, “You have to give away whatever you want for yourself?”