Gaia: healing through mindchange

Re: Tools for healing

http://living-now.gaia.com — Mon, 15 Sep 2008 05:59:26 GMT

Hey awesome list of rescources there. Might I recommend one also, LivingNow. Oh wait - that's where I work !!! ;-)

We all need recovery from the past

http://MiKaEl.gaia.com — Thu, 17 Jul 2008 18:46:48 GMT

Researchers are catching up with what we thought long time ago:
that most of modern illness, crime, violence, addictions and other destructive and self-destructive behaviors are caused by our anger and fears based on mistreatment through parents and society.

"Adverse Childhood Experiences" (ACE) the researchers call our traumatic experiences we suffered through child abuse and neglect, and other disrespectful behavior.

Here is a summary of what they could piece together. Check especially the table on page 6 of this report for an overview and links to further resources.

So how do we recover? By letting go of the story, releasing the emotions and their physical manifestations with EFT, forgiving ourselves and everyone involved in the drama, and by raising our consciouness to the point that we realize that it was only our negative attitude which tied us to the past and its suffering.

Not simple, but a way out of dis-ease.

None but ourselves can free our minds
Bob Marley, Redemption Song

Re: Who Am I?

http://MiKaEl.gaia.com — Tue, 18 Dec 2007 02:24:48 GMT

Welcome to healing through mindchange. You are right that emotional causes of illness have been largely neglected. I think that over 80% of doctor's visits are related to emotional problems, which are manifesting in the physical. Every body knows about emotional or stress associations to headaches, back pain, migraine, indigestion, pain syndromes, and similar problems.

Heart disease has long been associated with stress personalities and most medical problems have been linked to some kind of stress response. Books on psychosomatic medicine, such as "Molecules of Emotions", by Candice Peart and "The Balance Within" by Esther Sternberg and the field of psychoneuroimmunology (google) explain some of the connections between chronic illness and the stress hormones. The book "Messages from the Body" by Lincoln ... is still on my wishlist.

Through the successful application of EFT, we can confirm practically that even allergies, asthma, hypertension, Multiple sclerosis, Lupus erythematodes, and other serious chronic problems can be considered to be manifestations of emotional conflicts. If you count accidents, which happenn usually through mindlessness due to emotional conflicts or cirrhosis of the liver and other afflictions through substance abuse (smoking and lung cancer), which is caused by emotional traumas from childhood, I wonder if any health problem can be understood without looking at the underlying emotional factors.

When you consider that stress is nothing but a wrong, fearful, or negative expectation, based on fearful, negative thinking, you can see how important and healing a change of mind will be: a change towards peace of mind through positve thinking and affirmations, mindful breathing and meditation, letting go through EFT and letting Good take over, which means a trustful reliance on Spirit, the (Life) Force, or the Intelligence of the universe, which always heals if we don't resist it.

Re: Who Am I?

http://bigwhitewall.gaia.com — Sun, 09 Dec 2007 14:51:51 GMT

Hi
I am interested in this pod because my life has been decicated to understanding and working with change; most recently through creating a website on emotional health www.bigwhitewall.com Through personal experiences i have become passionate about how little interest is given to the emotional health compared to physical health. Yet one in third of visits to family doctors are to do with emotional rather than physical health. I would like to explore ways of enabling people to pursue strong emotional health states in the same way they would take care of their physical body.
Thank you for listening.

Re: Tools for healing

http://radiate-soul-light.gaia.com — Mon, 26 Feb 2007 17:35:50 GMT

Wow, how totally cool thanks for all the referrals. I have been journeying the adventure quest in conscious awareness for some time now, and through out my travels, i have come to know one thing, for sure, for me...... there is no, one set of tools, rules, processes, steps, programs that is right for all, except one, to look within self for it is within self that we find the all WE, individually, uniquely, require.... NOT to diminish garnering wisdom in any way, for this is how we are able to look more clearly unto self, and let me tell ya, i've dedicated the last coupla decades to nothing more than following the quest..... i have tried many methods, and found the best method for me, was the one that was most comfortable, with me.... i live my truth i meditate through out my day when i'm cleaning, exercising, even holding my son in my arms.... when i was starting out, awakening to the truth of me, the reason why i was, am, the way i am, what BEing ME, turned out to mean, you couldn't get truth out of my hands, i was all over it - researching, reading, discussing, writing, producing, and through out, i was attempting 'other's' ways of "BEing Truth, BEing Love", and forgot, that is ME.....allready..... It took me quite some time to trust in self, once my journey through the awesome pathways available opened up to my awareness........so many GREAT GREAT thinkers, truly, it can be soooo overwhelming.... so much so, that you doubt your SELF, your BEingness..... am i really such a Light BEing if i do not meditate in the standard accepted methods?? how can i be - if i am not doing what they say i should be doing.... Alas, I have resurfaced, a journey i shall cherish, always, all ways.......... For the greatest lesson learned was the one that set me free, to be the me, i know me to be, simply, by knowing me. Blessed Be Are All of We Angels Divine within the Embracing Light of Peaceful Loving Serenity, Radiate Soul Light roni

Death by Medicine

http://MiKaEl.gaia.com — Wed, 07 Feb 2007 20:03:46 GMT

Gary Null offers some new figures on the "Death by Medicine."

Here is the beginning of the article. Check also his web site www.garynull.com for lots more on adverse drug reactions and alternative treatments.

Death by Medicine

By Gary Null, PhD; Carolyn Dean MD, ND; Martin Feldman, MD; Debora Rasio, MD; and Dorothy Smith, PhD

Something is wrong when regulatory agencies pretend that vitamins are dangerous, yet ignore published statistics showing that government-sanctioned medicine is the real hazard.

Until now, Life Extension could cite only isolated statistics to make its case about the dangers of conventional medicine. No one had ever analyzed and combined ALL of the published literature dealing with injuries and deaths caused by government-protected medicine. That has now changed.

A group of researchers meticulously reviewed the statistical evidence and their findings are absolutely shocking.4 These researchers have authored a paper titled "Death by Medicine" that presents compelling evidence that today's system frequently causes more harm than good.

This fully referenced report shows the number of people having in-hospital, adverse reactions to prescribed drugs to be 2.2 million per year. The number of unnecessary antibiotics prescribed annually for viral infections is 20 million per year. The number of unnecessary medical and surgical procedures performed annually is 7.5 million per year. The number of people exposed to unnecessary hospitalization annually is 8.9 million per year.

The most stunning statistic, however, is that the total number of deaths caused by conventional medicine is an astounding 783,936 per year. It is now evident that the American medical system is the leading cause of death and injury in the US. (By contrast, the number of deaths attributable to heart disease in 2001 was 699,697, while the number of deaths attributable to cancer was 553,251.5)

We placed this article on our website to memorialize the failure of the American medical system. By exposing these gruesome statistics in painstaking detail, we provide a basis for competent and compassionate medical professionals to recognize the inadequacies of today's system and at least attempt to institute meaningful reformNatural medicine is under siege, as pharmaceutical company lobbyists urge lawmakers to deprive Americans of the benefits of dietary supplements. Drug-company front groups have launched slanderous media campaigns to discredit the value of healthy lifestyles. The FDA continues to interfere with those who offer natural products that compete with prescription drugs.

These attacks against natural medicine obscure a lethal problem that until now was buried in thousands of pages of scientific text. In response to these baseless challenges to natural medicine, the Nutrition Institute of America commissioned an independent review of the quality of "government-approved" medicine. The startling findings from this meticulous study indicate that conventional medicine is "the leading cause of death" in the United States .

The Nutrition Institute of America is a nonprofit organization that has sponsored independent research for the past 30 years. To support its bold claim that conventional medicine is America 's number-one killer, the Nutritional Institute of America mandated that every "count" in this "indictment" of US medicine be validated by published, peer-reviewed scientific studies.

What you are about to read is a stunning compilation of facts that documents that those who seek to abolish consumer access to natural therapies are misleading the public. Over 700,000 Americans die each year at the hands of government-sanctioned medicine, while the FDA and other government agencies pretend to protect the public by harassing those who offer safe alternatives.

A definitive review of medical peer-reviewed journals and government health statistics shows that American medicine frequently causes more harm than good.

Each year approximately 2.2 million US hospital patients experience adverse drug reactions (ADRs) to prescribed medications.(1) In 1995, Dr. Richard Besser of the federal Centers for Disease Control and Prevention (CDC) estimated thenumber of unnecessary antibiotics prescribed annually for viral infections to be 20 million; in 2003, Dr. Besser spoke in terms of tens of millions of unnecessary antibiotics prescribed annually.(2, 2a) Approximately 7.5 million unnecessary medical and surgical procedures are performed annually in the US,(3) while approximately 8.9 million Americans are hospitalized unnecessarily.(4)

As shown in the following table, the estimated total number of iatrogenic deaths-that is, deaths induced inadvertently by a physician or surgeon or by medical treatment or diagnostic procedures- in the US annually is 783,936. It is evident that the American medical system is itself the leading cause of death and injury in the US . By comparison, approximately 699,697 Americans died of heart in 2001, while 553,251 died of cancer.(5)

Table 1: Estimated Annual Mortality and Economic Cost of Medical Intervention

Condition	Deaths	Cost	Author
Adverse Drug Reactions	106,000	$12 billion	Lazarou(1), Suh (49)
Medical error	98,000	$2 billion	IOM(6)
Bedsores	115,000	$55 billion	Xakellis(7), Barczak (8)
Infection	88,000	$5 billion	Weinstein(9), MMWR (10)
Malnutrition	108,800	-----------	Nurses Coalition(11)
Outpatients	199,000	$77 billion	Starfield(12), Weingart(112)
Unnecessary Procedures	37,136	$122 billion	HCUP(3,13)
Surgery-Related	32,000	$9 billion	AHRQ(85)
Total	783,936	$282 billion

Using Leape's 1997 medical and drug error rate of 3 million(14) multiplied by the 14% fatality rate he used in 1994(16) produces an annual death rate of 420,000 for drug errors and medical errors combined. Using this number instead of Lazorou's 106,000 drug errors and the Institute of Medicine 's (IOM) estimated 98,000 annual medical errors would add another 216,000 deaths, for a total of 999,936 deaths annually.

Table 2: Estimated Annual Mortality and Economic Cost of Medical Intervention

Condition	Deaths	Cost	Author
ADR/med error	420,000	$200 billion	Leape(14)
Bedsores	115,000	$55 billion	Xakellis(7), Barczak (8)
Infection	88,000	$5 billion	Weinstein(9), MMWR (10)
Malnutrition	108,800	-----------	Nurses Coalition(11)
Outpatients	199,000	$77 billion	Starfield(12), Weingart(112)
Unnecessary Procedures	37,136	$122 billion	HCUP(3,13)
Surgery-Related	32,000	$9 billion	AHRQ(85)
Total	999,936

The enumerating of unnecessary medical events is very important in our analysis. Any

The adress of the full article is here:

http://www.lef.org/magazine/mag2004/mar2004_awsi_death_01.htm

Re: EFT and ho'oponopono

http://dojoge.gaia.com — Tue, 19 Dec 2006 11:42:03 GMT

Mi Ka El,

You said it much more eloquently than I could have. EFTwas my way of dealing with the issues, but perhaps others have a different way. But the key is to find that in yourself that you see outside of yourself and figure out a way to heal it.

I will continue to do as such and report back.

Be well,

Donald

Re: EFT and ho'oponopono

http://MiKaEl.gaia.com — Tue, 19 Dec 2006 11:00:34 GMT

Hi Donald,

as you said, the peace came over night.

My mind integrated the change and now I wake up with a vision of how to solve the world's problems. Your suggestion of combining EFT and ho'oponopono put it all together. It is the short cut to peace for all.

I am calm and relaxed now, even though somewhat excited, because I can see clearly now that it wasn't the miserable reality of the world conflicts which kept me in worries and fears, and thereby tempted to go into depression or obsessive compulsive behaviors.
It is my focus on conflicts and fearful projections which keeps the world in conflict and unable to make peace, and which keeps me under stress and worries.

Doctor, heal yourself, they say. Thanks for the reminder.

Feeling the change into peace in myself I can see that everybody can do it, and if everybody is at peace there will be nobody to vote for war. So all we really need to do to reach peace for all, is help them make the change for themselves to get out of their fears and worrisome projections. Find a way that everybody treats him/herself with EFT and lets go of expectations of war and conflicts. So that there is nobody who wants to fight.

Well, let's do it.

Thanks for sharing, brother.

One love, Mikael

Re: EFT and ho'oponopono

http://MiKaEl.gaia.com — Tue, 19 Dec 2006 01:25:21 GMT

This is very good stuff, Donald.

I have been tapping for about two hours now, and didn't come to peace yet, but i want to take some notes on what's happening.

i tapped on my fears that the young nazis in Germany are driving the country back into an ideological confrontation which leads to political and violent struggles so that the achievements of the last fourty years will be wiped out again,

and on my fears that the American hawks will manage to develop the conflict with the moslem world into a world war, as they proclaim already, so that spiritual developments and other insights of our generation will be blastet back to the middle ages again,

and on my obsession that I have to be the whistle blower or the one who saves the world which stems from the fifties, when people in Germany used to say: "Why did nobody speak up and stop Hitler and the murder of the Jews?"

What happened was that the issues were neutralized somewhat, but more of other political worries came up and I became quite agitated, so that i just kept tapping even though i sometimes wasn't so sure what i was tapping on. Anyway, finally i came to some peace and insights i want to share.

Suddenly I saw that all these worries and opinions are really only my projections, and not real at all. As soon as I treated them they became phantasy stories, even though I still knew that many others believe in them too. And i realized again the truth of what I wrote in my blog last week: that the fears of war are beliefs in war which lead to war.
And the consequence? We all need to neutralize our fears and give up believing in wars, worries, and fears if we really want to stop the wars and live in peace. Fear = false evidence appearing real (Anonymous).

"What if they declare war, and nobody goes?"

P.S.:
I'll share more when I get there.

Would appreciate if you could describe in some detail how you phrase the EFT set up though, Donald.

Tools for healing

http://MiKaEl.gaia.com — Mon, 18 Dec 2006 22:01:53 GMT

Tools for healing and recovering the true Self

I start with a list of tools which hopefully expands and improves through various contributions and discussions until we develop a program that everybody can agree upon.

(Sorry if the layout is a little off. I can't figure out why the pasting changes my file.)

Mindful breathing

Keeps me centered in Self at all times, mindful and aware, relaxes me, keeps my blood free from acidity, an important prerequisite for physical health.

Mindfulness or insight meditation

Awakes me to awareness of spirit or Self, realizing that I am not identical with my thoughts and emotions, awareness that thoughts create emotions, realizing that we are not hurt by other peoples actions but by what we think about them, by our own attitudes.

Activating the witness consciousness, recognizing that I am awareness and will beyond thoughts and feelings.

Acceptance of the now

Letting go of past and future through acceptance of All that is. Only when I accept I can develop ideas on how to improve. Criticizing only locks me into the past.

Open mind

Beginners mind, recognize that we know nothing through thinking, but everything through open minded awareness

Focusing

We choose our experience by what we focus on. Focus deliberately on positives, - on what we want, not what we don't want, -expressing goodness makes us feel good. Focusing on love, compassion, generosity, giving, serving all, right thinking, eightfold noble path. Focusing as a practice teaches us to connect to our "felt sense" and develop what and how we think by how it feels.

Change of mind, change of attitude

Letting go of negatives, realizing that negative thinking hurts us, not them. Letting go of dependencies on experiences that are not chosen by Self, but hinder Self awareness such as substances, personalities, power, thinking, or emotions. Realizing that the fear of not getting enough is the root of all dependence. Knowing that we are always living in our own minds and feelings and can learn to manage them.

Recognizing that we cannot change other peoples thoughts except by indoctrination and manipulation.

Experiencing that a change of mind changes and heals our life.

Recognizing that mind is a quality of the universe, not only humans. Intelligence/consciousness is part of the universe as we are part of it.

Emotional Clearing

Uprooting subconscious fears and misbeliefs.

Healing trauma, shame and guilt. Emotional trauma has been found to be the source of emotional, mental and physical illness as well as of crime and violence. Recovering from trauma is recovery of the true Self. The tools of healing trauma and dependencies are tools for healing Self.

Discreating physical symptoms and psychosomatic causes of illness by reclaiming our power of Self. Enhancing life by replacing negative beliefs with positive attitudes which penetrate into the subconscious through Emotional Freedom Technique, Polarity Therapy, Rebirthing, Avatar Course, Trauma Recovery, Twelve Step Program of AA, spiritual awakening, letting go, and many other techniques.

Recognizing our mental framework as a thought field which is in constant exchange with other thought fields, local as well as regional, national and the world thought field, called the Zeitgeist.

Ecology of mind consists of keeping our thought field clear by clearing negative emotions, focusing on positive, life-enhancing ideas and by choosing and creating loving and supportive relationships with other "thought fields" in the awareness that they will influence our field no matter if we recognize it or not. Maintaining a sustainable peace of mind enables peaceful cooperation on all levels.

For the views on these concepts by Gary Craig, the inventor of EFT, see his article "The solution to all the world's problems" on the

EFT Blog at http://eftcommunity.emofree.com/blogs/eft_blog/default.aspx

Forgiveness

Recognizing that forgiving serves me, not the one I forgive. Forgiving frees my thought field from entanglement with others, past, future and my false self.
Freedom and peace of mind by forgiving the past, self and others, forgiving the ignorance we are leaving behind, realizing that I am o.k. beyond story and conditioning, because I am spirit, not thoughts.

Liberating the soul

Choosing happiness and peace of mind as the top priority of life. Letting go of being right. Let go let God. Recognizing that we know nothing, but our spirit/Self knows everything and guides us by making us feel good and joyous if we contemplate doing the right thing and bad if we contemplate the wrong. Joy and happiness appear as I get out of the way. Practicing the constant presence of "God" = good-ness, spirit, intelligence, love, truth, and integrity expressing in, as and through me. The presence of my true Self as an expression of the life-energy-consciousness-of-goodness-love-and-peace assures me that I am always on the right track as long as I am aware and feel good, honest, integer and joyful.

Gratitude, appreciation

The direct way to happiness are gratitude and humility. Spirit/universal intelligence/goodness/nature is in charge, not the ego.

Service, Creativity,

Helping others onto the path towards peace and happiness reminds me and clarifies for me how to stay on the path. "You cannot keep it if you don't give it away". Each one teach one.

Build a Society of Friends

Develop and support projects for peace and spiritual awareness

Essential Books and Resources:

Mindfulness:

Thich Nhat Hahn, The Miracle of Mindfulness

The Heart of The Buddha's Teaching

Joseph Goldstein: Insight Meditation

Mikael Mindchanger: Awareness in the Now @ learnoutloud.com

Acceptance of Now:

Eckardt Tolle, The Power of Now

The Sedona Method

Open Mind:

Shunryu Suzuki, Zen Mind, Beginners Mind

Focusing:

http://www.focusing.org/

http://www.focusing.org/spirituality.html

http://www.focusing.org/buddhism_rlevin.html

Esther Hicks, Ask And It Is Given

Mikael Mindchanger: A Change of Mind @ learnoutloud.com

Change of mind, attitude:

Will Harmann: The Global Mind Change

Richard Carlson: You Can Be Happy No Matter What

Happiness Is Free

The Sedona Method

Harry Palmer: Living Deliberately

Gerald Jampolsky, Diane Cirincione, Love Is The Answer,

Change Your Mind Change Your Life

Emotional Clearing:

Gary Craig, Emotional Freedom Technique website http://www.emofree.com

Roger Callahan: Thought Field Therapy

John Ruskan: Emotional Clearing

Louise Hay, You Can Heal Your Life

Liberating The Soul or true Self:

Ernest Holmes, The Science of Mind

Paul Brunton, The Wisdom of the Overself

Vernon Howard: Psycho-Pictography

Swami Prabhavananda, Christopher Isherwood: How To Know God, The Yoga Aphorisms of Patanjali

Harry Palmer, Living Deliberately

Owen Waters, The Shift, http://www.infinitebeing.com/theshift/

Etc,etc,etc,etc

Re: EFT and ho'oponopono

http://MiKaEl.gaia.com — Mon, 18 Dec 2006 21:57:11 GMT

Great idea! Thanks for the suggestion, and welcome to the pod.
I'll experiment with that as of now.

mikael

EFT and ho'oponopono

http://dojoge.gaia.com — Mon, 18 Dec 2006 00:30:36 GMT

Hi All,

After reading about ho'oponopono, it occurred to me that it would be very powerful to combine it with EFT. So in the last two days, I have been doing just that. Simply, I identify an imbalance in myself (such as judgment), in someone I know (such as my client's anxiety), or in the world at large (such as the conflict in Iraq), and I do EFT on myself to clear the energy (ie, clearing my own judgment, anxiety, and conflict).

The result is amazing. I have never felt as present and peaceful as I feel now. This is certainly a technique I'm going to teach to my clients.

Just thought I'd share...

Be well,

Donald

Who Am I?

http://dojoge.gaia.com — Mon, 18 Dec 2006 00:13:41 GMT

Hi All,

I am a student of consciousness who serves humanity using life path consultation and hypnotherapy. My belief is that one can instantly, totally, and permanently change their reality (including physical, emotional, and mental health) simply by changing their mind.

This is a great forum, and I would like to read stories about the experiences of others who have healed through mindchange.

Be well,

Donald

Re: Emotional Freedom Ttechnique, EFT

http://MiKaEl.gaia.com — Mon, 11 Dec 2006 21:15:01 GMT

If it works on prisoners who intuitively reject anything that comes their way, it works on anone, I guess.
Here is a Rapport on how Gary Craig, the inventor of EFT introduced it in a prison in Valifornia.

http://www.emofree.com/Cases/rapport.htm?WT.mc_id=N_Dec08_Tip4

Transformational breathwork and Psych-k

http://MiKaEl.gaia.com — Wed, 29 Nov 2006 15:27:18 GMT

Yesterday I talked to a friend who does transformational breathing workshops, to be reviewed at http://www. oxygenesis.org. She told me about a new healing modality for the subconscious called Psych-k. At first glanc it seems to be quite similar to EFT, except you don't need the tapping any more. Just trusting the higher power to heal, speak pure intention, is the tool.

Of course that's the tool in every modality, in the doctors white coat, which is supposed to impress his godliness on us, as well as in the highly advertised pill.

Seems the question is only when are we beginning to trust that we are all right by nature?
And beyongd the intention and the trust? What's the minmal practice?

As Desmond untiringly declares: conscious breathing is the bottom line of all pracitce. Which makes sense, because even the old greeks knew that pneuma = breath is one with pneuma = spirit. And to their insights I add: Transformational breathing opens you up to subconscious blocks and gives you a tool for releasing them in the same instance. So that you know breathing is IT and you find a way to stick with IT.

The next workshop is in Janauary right here in Negril, Jamaica. Hope to see you there.

Mikael

P.S.: If you sign up tell Lois I recommended you. I am sure she'll give me a discunt for that.

Re: Healing begins at home

Thu, 23 Nov 2006 16:11:08 GMT

         I posted this on another pod a few months back,

  I am a healer and from the start I was never satisfied with just being a healer. I never asked to be a healer, if I did I was unaware of what I was asking for. I wanted to know why I was never happy and what would make me happy.  I knew I did not want to try anything I had already tried. And that's when I was lead to learn about forgiveness.
     As a healer I wanted to learn more about healers.  I did not understand why they could heal others but not their self and why they had to die. I believe that a healer is someone who starts to heal their self and while they are healing they discover that they have power to heal others. When they believe they are a healer to heal others they forget about healing their self and start doing what they were doing all their life - trying to change everybody but their self.  Most healers believe an exchange has to take place so they charge for their service but what they are not seeing is that an exchange is taking place, that others are coming to give them what they need.       Your friend, Don
      Now I will add to this, what they need is somebody to help them to open their HEART, where healing can start and not only for the one that looks like they need to be healed or the healer but also for..............who ever and what ever but that is no concern of ours. We are to learn what opens our HEART or should I say what it is that closes our HEART !! Some think that their HEART opens and it stays that way, this is not true, I think you are aware of that. I know I feel different when it is open. How we open the HEART is by being who we are. You see all the people into meditation, they only start, they don't keep it going. They put the world aside for a short period then they pick it up again. If we want to remember who we are we must find another that wants the same, I don't mean someone that said's they want the same thing and really they don't. It is better to be the student then the teacher, that don't mean that we can not be a teacher, it means if we go back and forth then we can learn more to teach or share, I like that word better. If I keep on going then you won't buy my book and I'm sitting on 1200 of them, I self published it, that was easy to learn, but self marketing is not so easy , well maybe it is but it is slow :-). Maybe we need to e-mail each other, I have my reason for that. Talk to you later, My Brother

Re: PERSONAL EXPERIENCES

http://MiKaEl.gaia.com — Thu, 23 Nov 2006 02:51:14 GMT

Thanks for the story, my brother.

I can identify. It took me eight years of recovery to find spirit in me, expressing through me as me when my judgments get out of the way. It's my goodness, my integrity, that i denied all my life and then was angry with the world for not acknowledging it.

Since age 13 I was angry at my parents and the world for separating me from my twin brother in high school and lived a false self ever since, - a self of rebellion and anger, trying anti-capitalism, anti-autoritarianism, anti-nuclear, anti-German, anti-white, and finally anti-myself. Got almost killed in the process, but didn't wake up. Thought I needed to be right.
Only when I saw that i knew nothing and was wrong in everything i ever tried, I could choose peace of mind and happiness above being right, above that foolish story they call my life. That's when I learned that peace and love, joy and freedom are parts of me, aspects of spirit as me, available at all times as soon as I remember to express them.

One love.

Re: Healing begins at home

http://MiKaEl.gaia.com — Thu, 23 Nov 2006 02:08:20 GMT

Thanks for reminding me, Don. It is so easy to fool myself and think i need to heal others when I am really the one who needs healing the most. And just this thought lets humility come in and the peace that heals my monkey mind.

But then, the next moment, my thoughts take off again and want me go out and heal the world, even though I have been proving to them for the hundreth time now that it is only me they are talking to. An ego talking to a Self, but the Self is not interested, just observing the game of one fraction of ignorance trying to fool the other.

Peace is when I detach from that little "i".

One love, one heart, one destiny. Who said that?
Wasn't that a cowboy movie?

So what?

Truth is truth.

PERSONAL EXPERIENCES

Wed, 22 Nov 2006 17:22:09 GMT

Here is a personal experience, I named it, The Wolf Story.

Once a week or so was movie day at school, and we got to sit in class and watch a movie, which was usually a documentary. I remember one in particular that will always remind me of myself. It was about a man in Spain who raised packs of wolves on his land because they were becoming endangered as a species. The man talked about the history of the wolf and what was causing them to become endangered. One day he witnessed a female having pups and took a newborn pup to raise. He said when wolf pups are born the first thing they smell would always be their "mother." He took the pup home and raised it on a bottle. After taking care of it and observing it for a year he came to realize that she was not happy, and he thought she needed to be with her own kind. He kept a detailed record of the pup's pack and knew exactly where her mother and siblings stayed on his land and released her back to them. They did not reject her, but she rejected them because she did not know she was a wolf. The first thing she smelled was a human and that's what she thought she was. He saw that he could not leave her there and took her back home where she laid down all alone. The man realized that the wolf did not know her true nature and probably would never know it, and he said that he would never do this to another animal again.

The first time I saw this documentary I did not see any further than a story about wolves, but the second time I watched it I saw myself as the wolf. I have experienced the same thing. When I heard the man say the wolf would probably never know its true nature I realized why I have felt so confused all my life. I was not who I thought I was. He said the wolf would lie around and you could see her and tell that she was very confused, unhappy and lost. This is how I have always felt, like lying around the yard not knowing what to do and when I did do something I did not like it. I was not happy.

I knew then without a doubt that I am spirit and I was going to find my true nature. I am what keeps the body alive and I have to remember who I am, who my real father is. I could see what happened to me, the same as what I always heard about wild animals turning on their masters sooner or later because they return to their nature. No, it is not that at all. The animal is just unhappy because it's not its self, its true nature, and the farther it gets away the unhappier it becomes, the angrier it becomes. It is because the animal believes it is a human.

This is the same problem we have as humans-we think and believe we are human when we are really spirit but we do not know that we are. All my life I felt different from others. I felt I don't like them, I don't belong here, I need to go somewhere, do something. I felt as if I were dropped off here and I am not from here, no one is like I am. The older I got, the further away I got from my true nature, and the anger and resentment grew inside of me because I did not like myself. The anger and resentment started coming out more and more, and I would lose control and blame others for pushing my button. The angrier I felt, the less I wanted to live, and I began to cover these feelings up with drugs, alcohol, sex and money. Nothing helped me-it only covered up my problem for a short time and then it was back the next day and growing bigger. People around me, my family and my friends could see this happening to me. Little did they know that the same thing was happening to them. They could not see it in themselves but had no problem seeing it in everybody else! It was not until I was locked up that I saw it in so many others and I could see that there was something wrong with me.

I had been taught all my life that I was human, just as the wolf was raised human. The wolf never saw or learned anything about a wolf, and it would be hard to teach her that she is a wolf after raising her to be a domesticated pet. She was not allowed to be her true nature and was truly trapped within herself. This is the same thing that happened to me. I was trapped, imprisoned within myself. Sure, you can say we are human! Then what about all this God stuff? We are human, we are spirit, and the human part dies and the spirit lives forever. Why, then, are we taught so much about human nature and nothing or very little about spirit nature?

Re: Healing begins at home

Sat, 11 Nov 2006 03:14:58 GMT

Yes, healing begins at home and no telling where it ends...I think by sharing personal experiences, of what and how we have changed, and how and what we are doing to help others to change, and how others are helping us to change. I don't think there is as many out there for us to help change as there is as many out there to help us to change. As a healer I am different in the way that i BELIEVE that it is i that is being healed. The one that comes to me to be healed is healing me also, what ever you give to another you give to yourself because we are ONE. Just like right now you are here to help me to release love to the world, as i write my vibrations are at such a higher level you may even feel it as i am writing and there is no telling what this energy is doing to help change the world right now. Your Friend, Don