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Respose to REVOLUTION v EVOLUTION - read this secondArgus said Oct 3, 2006, 2:29 PM: |
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“If as Andrew Cohen has said - human incarnation is not intended to be living to fulfil the desires of ego - but individual responsibility to switch, as a result of the activation of conscious choice, to assuming the burden of positive & qualitative evolution - and that that switch is a big thing - and furthermore that - there is an elegant simplicity to all I'm saying … it's very satisfying … it's very simple really … it's not complicated … it just takes time for people to get it … when you get it it's very simple ….” And it is a very simple personal decision, and it is a HUGE BURDEN, but it is having the strength to continue in that decision with deliberate intent no matter how much of a burden it is. Saying out loud; “God Damnit this is how I'm going to live my life, and if it makes me happy then why can't you just leave me the fuck alone and let me pursue happiness?!” Saying; “I do not want to live in a world beset by corporate madness, out of control government behemoths, dirty cops, dirty teachers, dirty congressmen, and just dirty old men in general. I'm tired of jumping through the hoops of the crooked who have placed themselves on pedestals so high they can't even see the top of my head anymore and the validity of my existence has been relegated down to a number that can be deleted at the push of a button. I am working towards living positive and qualitative evolution…on a global scale without a single thought to my own well being. Did you know I have already been threatened by the FBI once for this? I am facing spending the rest of my days in a dank government cell for telling my experience of the truth. Simply stating that I saw that no airplane hit the pentagon…that I was a witness to that lie puts me in danger. Yet still I continue on until I am either arrested for being a patriot or killed for it.So no. No cult here, I wish nothing to do with it, and the mere suggestion of it signals my time of departure. My very first statements on this pod aside from posting up the book was to state my reluctance to do ANYTHING more than post it. The discussion was for you guys, I was never supposed to have a part in it and I never wanted a part in it. Do you have any idea what I go through on a daily basis? My social life is nothing. The people I associate with accuse me of being a bullshit artist, and I have never done anything to deserve that except tell the truth as I experienced it. I have been suicidal. Extremely depressed. Angry. Infuriated. All of it when I seek to associate with other people. The only crime I am guilty of is not keeping that dirty secret that my incestuous uncle told me to keep. The only crime I am guilty of is being the messenger, and now I am broken. I am done. Maybe I'm taking this too personally but I can't help but feel from the tone, and maybe tone is hard to convey in an electronic format, but it seems to me that I am being accused of trying to start a god damn cult around this. FUCK THAT. FUCK THAT FUCK THAT FUCK THAT. I will have nothing to do with it. One of the things that the Handbook states is to think the thought and let it go. Well, I'm letting it go. I am giving the pod over to Yosyama and I will not be a part of it anymore. It is too much for me, I have so many things going on in my life right now and I have been giving it all away, and thats what I'm supposed to do, but there are other people out there, and as long as I don't try to stick around and make 'friends' with anyone everything seems to go smoothly. I am only a messenger, and everyone wants to shoot the messenger, just as I feel as I am being shot at now. I am taking my personal information off the site, and closing my other pods. I will still respond to emails for a while, but I will not respond to anything I feel to be psychologically hostile. I have had a horrible fucking day, and this takes the cake. Don't kill the messenger he says….What the hell do you think you're doing? It's been real. It's been fun. But all good things must soon come to an end. You can either allow the process to take place naturally which makes for a smooth transition, or you can stir everything up and make it suck. One way or another, all things come to their transition point.
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Re: Respose to REVOLUTION v EVOLUTION - read this secondMichael said Oct 4, 2006, 5:33 AM: |
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I have been a messenger ALL my life and have forever being shot down for the message which I have conveyed - but have come to terms with - not taking this too personally - & the reason - completely unconnected with you or the Handbook - that I posted my Don't KILL the Messenger blog in the first instance. |
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