Journey with Fieke

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I am touched and moved that you would share this special time with myself and others Hummingbird.

It is wonderful knowing that the separation when it comes will only be in appearance and temporary, perhaps in the twinkling of an eye from Fieke’s point of view, (who knows?) but it will seem much longer to her family and friends.

This life would be an appalling waste of time if it was not some form of preparation for something else.

I think Fieke is to be envied, in the nicest possible way, because she will be released from the constraints of a body that is beyond its use by date, and she will experience glorious freedom.

You are obviously highly thought of Anna, which I doubt would surprise anyone that has experienced your gentle but firm touch of compassion.  I have no doubt your presence with Fieke would be giving her comfort as she faces this unknown but inevitable transition.

Bless you Anna

Love

Andrew

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Anna - I hear your love for Fieke so clearly:

“I love Fieke. I feel pain when she’s suffering. I wish I could spend
more time with Fieke. I wish I could journey with her innermost journey
- but that is hers to take. I can only hold her hand and whisper loving
words and tell her there is no need to worry - everything is perfect,
everything is as it is meant to be…”

Sometimes when a group is doing reiki, some of us will stand behind folks who are doing the primary work and rest our hands on their shoulders - and so my hands go out to your shoulders now … offering healing support in your journey with Fieke’s transition.


gentle loving blessings -


Sylvia

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Sweet Hummingbird
 
I feel the Love you are sharing with Fieke at this precious time, the love and comfort so unconditionally given is the greatest act of loving kindness.
 
 
 
 
 
My heart is deeply touched and moved by the warmth and compassion of your caring for this beautiful soul during her time of preparation. I know this is a difficult time for you as well, but know that our hearts and prayers are with you.
 
 
 
Sending you eternal love and peace. Thank you for sharing your heart and your story of your dear friend..
 
 
 
You have shared and helped so many of us during times of loss…know that we are with you dear sweet gentle Anna
 
 
 
Blessing be with you now and always…
 
Diane

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Anna, thank you for this sharing in words; and the sharing that is between the words.

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Anna, thank you for sharing what is a close and poignant time, you said if she could be aware - sometimes when folk are that ill and there is no communication it is like they are on recieve but from quite a distance - as if in a trance, I have a feeling she would have been aware but not able to respond. I experienced that myself when very  ill as a child. I just thought it might comfort you to know that even if unresponsive she probably was aware at some level of yor presence and love.

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A very touching story of your gentle farewell to a very special friend !  A heartbreaking experience but at the same time a privilege to follow someone that close  during their transition.  You are sharing with us a wonderful remembrance of her  -  and,  as you know;   she will be there,  looking after you from her new dimension…
 

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Dear fellow travelers, thank you, each loving message is a precious gift. I am sorry not to thank each one of you individually as you deserve. My energy is a little low these days - so much to do! I am really at peace with this process but still find I am so tired at the end of each day. I realised today that this is a little like pregnancy. A sort of cuccoon experience - it’s as though everything is preparing for and is built around a special day. In this case, it’s Fieke leaving her material body at the end of this life. I think one of the reasons I became a Tibetan Buddhist is the sense that this is probably one of the most important days of one’s life.

Fieke is having her own very personal sacred experience as all beings do at this time. At times she seems scared. When I hold her and tell her there is nothing to worry about, all is okay, she seems to become calm again. I wish I could do more and have more insight into her needs. I also know I am also doing the best I can, as is each loving person around her.

Fieke always loved romance and also sees straight through hypocrisy. A lovely combination! Sholto, her son is being so amazing. He spends all day with her and appears tireless. He tells her from his heart what a wonderful mum she is and gives her these gifts in the most romantic ways his gallant heart can manifest. This is very beautiful to witness.

Sophia, Fieke’s daughter is arriving on Sunday evening, then Fieke’s circle will be complete and I think Fieke will feel at peace.

love

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Anna, dear Anna, bless you for sharing such beauty with us.  I have this vision of you with Fieke, she sleeping with her head on your lap; and I don’t know if I’ve ever seen anything more poignant or important.  Indeed, this is a very precious and sacred time for Fieke.  My heart and my prayers are with both of you and her family gathering round.
 
Peace and love

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Dearest Anna,

     You and Your Loved Ones have traveled so Beautifully to have brought You all here.  Your comparison to pregnancy is reminiscent of another comparison I recall from long ago of the time spent with someone as they prepare to pass.  It was that of a Spiritual Midwife soothingly aiding a soul to transition into the Life Beyond.  If a child can be born with a large team of Doctors, Nurses and other support personnel   then I surely think a soul can move on with more than one “Midwife”. 
     While life is precious, these moments too are precious and maybe the ability to share them as someone lingers is a burden the one passing carries for all our sakes.  When my Beloved Abuela declined after my Sister Lisa’s Passing, the Timing of her own Passing was such that it almost made her soul seem very in touch with the Universe and what transpired.  It was as if she had waited to give us all sufficient time to separate the events in our Lives to be singular events.  The strain on my mom from my father’s NDE facilitated by his near fatal MI made it so the Family needed us all to put that behind us.  As a family we celebrated my Father’s 71st Birthday in my Sister’s home.  The next day my Abuela went into the hospital (on the 21st) and then didn’t pass until the 1st. 
     I only share this as I examine these events and see personally that the Transitions in lingering can be very Blessed in ways often difficult to imagine.  Only in this way has Feieke been able to see the most amazing People who have come into her life and at some points grown by having known her.  This is a powerful gift for a Passing Soul.  In sharing yourselves with her there is no greater balm to the soul for its Healing and Salvation.  My heart, Soul and Mind call out to All that Is and seeks for you Each to Be Blessed with All that You Need, Are and Give so Your Gifts of Being can All Blend in a Blessed Chorus of Spiritual Energy to Accompany You Each.

Love & Light,


~Soul Friend
~~~Rick

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Fieke passed on last night. Her children were with her as she and they wished. As I fell asleep last night, Fieke was sitting there in a pair of cotton pants I’d seen her wear years ago. She looked peaceful. I felt happy that I was with her. At the time I didnt know it was about 2 hours after she’d died. Gien is practicing Phowa for her now - a Tibetan Buddhist practice for those who have passed on. I am sitting with my tears and letting the range feelings  which are coming, flow. Thank you for meeting me in this space.
much love

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my heart is with you

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Love & Light Be with You and Yours!

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Dearest Anna, Enclosing you in a warm embrace, and allowing you your space. Loving light to all near and dear ones.

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Dear Anna

“Don’t cry because it’s over.  Smile because it happened.”  - Dr. Seuss

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I am so moved with the beautiful writings on Fieke.  It’s so very wonderful to be blessed with so many friends….friends that love her for all of her life’s inputs she so lovingly shared. 
She led such a full and interesting life and her fight for hanging on through such a painful ending, is truly a courageous act.

God Bless her sweet soul.

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Anna,
 
I feel blessed to be able to have a sense of this remarkable woman.  I understand so well the stage she and you and her family are at now.
 
It is a “magic” time as transition nears, sacred and precious, like no other in its quiet, loving way.
 
Thank you, for each such time is a remembering too, of a personal experience of such.  It is an amazing time for humanity, I believe, transition seem to be coming so quickly.  Change is so in the air.
 
Hugs-
Deborah

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Dearest Anna,
She had been waiting for Sophia.
My heart and prayers are with you and all of Fieke’s loved ones during this sacred time.
Peace and Love …

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Fieke,

Your journey in this incarnation is over
you can finally let go of the pain body
You were courageous in waiting for Sophia
and now you have seen your children
just as you said you must
you have let go

This last week has been so difficult for you
the pain, the nausea, the fear, the incredible weariness
when limbs and body parts
can no longer do
what they did so well their entire life
all part of the natural processes
of this consciousness
preparing to let go of this body

We will read Bardo Thodul
and alleviate your fears as best we can
knowing that all this work
will not only benefit you
but us as well
as this life prepares us for our own time

Each precious being who dies
is a reminder
of the preciousness of our own life

May we all use this precious life
to both live and die
in the light of truth
so that we may live in

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Dear Anna
I’ve been reading these pages over many weeks, finding it difficult to express the heartfelt sway of emotional communion I’ve experienced.  Eyes move over the screen the way fingers feel the bumps of Braille and absorb a sense of what is being conveyed, the depth of honesty and openness, the ache of loss, the comfort of presence.  I feel that your losses, and others too, have been profound, yet the pain is accepted openly.  One thing seems to shine through is that both you and Gien are extraordinary people.  We are all better for your presence among us.  Thank you.
Sincerely,
David

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Thank you dear ones for walking with myself and others here. You are treasured and you each offer a wonderful gift.

Fieke’s cremation and memorial will take place on Friday.

I find these two events play different but important roles in the closure/acceptance/grieving/loving process.

I find the cremation/funeral feels so formal… I remember with my daughter, Gra-anna, I wished I lived somewhere like India - I so wanted to perform the cremation myself on the banks of the Ganges - rather than deal with the formality of the little chapel which I didn’t relate to and didn’t feel Gra-anna would either. We did the ceremony ourselves but were also bound by the structure of the chapel and funeral service.

I find this process reflects our society which hasnt learned well how to deal with death. So it is a bit out of touch, a bit wooden… but at the same time I bring myself to the occasion and this is real.

Memorials, on the other hand, I find are very precious - sharing from the heart and closeness among loved ones - even if they are strangers - we’re all there with the same heart and have the same reason - our bond with a beloved who has passed on. I find people are so real on these occasions - the passing of a loved one seem to strip barriers from the heart.

much love

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Hi, Anna - [quietly present, gently offering origami lilies to you and Fieke].  As you may know - lilies in the Christian tradition are symbols of the resurrection - the joyous hope and promise of life beyond this one.

I too find funerals formal and wooden - I have come to much prefer the perspective and experience of “celebrations of life” gatherings - which can be beautiful opportunities for grief, love and laughter to flow.  May Friday’s memorial be a celebration of Fieke’s life and love - and those who love(d) her.


loving blessings -


Sylvia

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What a beautiful, loving tribute you have written about someone whom you have deeply cherished.  Thank you for sharing.

I wish Fieke clarity and light as she continues on her journey.  Hugs to you and Glen, and Fieke’s family. 

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thank you loved ones, for walking with me

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Oh, Anna. Fieke was so, so blessed to know you, and you here, and we are, all the more so, for your generosity in sharing her brilliance and beauty with us.

I almost cried when I saw your first post. She looks so much like my great aunt, a woman whom I was in-part named after, and your story reminded me of her. And then to read through and to witness your courage and heart in being with her (and honoring that she’d walk those final steps alone) and to see the rest of the care and support and trust from others–it did make me cry. Again, thank you, dear you, for being, and thank you, to all the other embodied angels here.

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Gentlest of hugs to you Anna … .”for life is but a passing show, of magic shadows that come and go . . ” We are but spirits on a journey …

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nothing matters - that made me cry as sometimes everything in my life seems so heavy with mattering.
 
thank you anna and thank you fieke for reminding me that nothing matters.
 
and every moment is precious and filled with grace.
 
i too send prayers and love.

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Thanks so much for sharing your love of your friend.

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thank you dear ones