Queer Myth Archetypes - Androgyny

willow… i wanna know why yours is madonna yes!

shaneequa… diva worship… um… i like kali in hinduism… does that count? i did like madonna for a while certainly, although i connected more with erasure and the girly man that andy bell was. i was all happy when he waved and said hello to me in the middle of a concert when i waved at him. that sort of connection. also getting his autograph afterwards. he as a character spoke to me in that he was so willing to be such a creature from another planet and expressive.

at this point in my life i think ramakrishna from hinduism is a definite icon for me. i have done some reading about him, but know more about him second hand. that he would dress as a woman to worship at times or some such thing. he just seems creative and quirky from what little i know of him. i bought a couple books about him, but found myself giving them away for different reasons and thus have not read them yet.

carrie ann moss certainly caught my attention for her androgynous ways in the matrix. a straight friend named dave commented to a friend on her being hot in the same week that i commented on her being attractive. both he and i commented on her attractiveness, although i said i could be with a girl along that energy and he said he could be with a guy with energy like that. androgyny has always fascinated me on some level. not sure why. so it is not so much the diva that i have connected with, but some sort of androgyny. guys in some sort of skirt or kilt, but who are not wearing heels nor trying to be women per say. a 'man' in a dress. a woman in a male looking outfit. i am fascinated by some lesbians who maintain some feminity, but have masculine energy as well.

tilda swinton in constantine as the angel gabriel. tilda swinton in orlando. julie andrews in victor victoria dressed as a male. all of that catches my attention. For me personally, I am not drawn to lipstick or heels or much of that stuff. i may enjoy the spectacle of a cher show, like the last one where she had a hindu chant and rode around on an elephant, but that was more the india theme that i got into. i enjoy women and their voices often speak to me in a song, but they themselves do not necessarily become divas who i want to emulate in any way or who i become particularly fascinated with for their feminity. that said, my ex adored marilyn and obsessed about her to some degree. a fairly high degree.

all that though i don't understand and can be bothered by (coming out of my bothered closet, which i guess i get to look at). in my world, i think it makes more sense for you as a drag queen and your history to connect to a woman like that and that i am thrilled for and it makes sense to me, but like my ex, and then this other friend who would just go on and on about women, it made no sense to me and a part of me wanted to slap them. at the same time there have been songs which have caught my attention and had me want to put on a dress or have some sort of outfit to figure out a way to perform them - both male and female. every once in a while i dream of the right outfit to trapse around and 'be' freddy mercury, or my version of him. as far as females, i think certain madonna and celine songs have made me want to do that. yep, celine songs. mainstream, cliche perhaps, but the woman has a voice on some of her later albums that i connect to a bit more as my heart gets more open and less clogged from all the smoking i used to do. lol.

hmmm…
-d

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Great posts!  As for David, yes Kali counts (although I don't recall seeing her on Divas Live LOL!)  As for Ramakrishna, I don't know much about him except that he did indeed dress in “drag” on occassion, which would make him an “honorary” diva (kind of like Elton John or Little Richard!)  And as for Madonna, well… of course she counts!

Androgyny is an interesting phenomonon.  Back in college, I attended a very conservative school (Miami University), but there was a small community of radically liberal students who lived on the Western campus (back in the '60's, Western campus was the training center for the civil rights Freedom Riders… remember “Mississippi Burning”?)  Anyway, during my college years, there was a big trend among western students to dress androgynously.  Women (straight and gay) typically shaved their heads and dawned male clothing, while men (mostly straight) would sport dresses or skirts.  Needless to say, Western students were greatly ostracised from the rest of the campus (there was even a short-lived movement by College Republicans to have us banned from Miami… but that's another story!)  Several university professors also participated in this androgyny trend, including a 70-ish year old man who often sported a broomstick skirt to class (of course, he had also been friends with Timothy Leary and was known to distribute psylocibin mushrooms to students back in the '60's- yet another story!LOL) 

To my knowledge, this androgyny trend at Miami University was very short-lived (1990-2000), although I'm sure there are still a number of students who carry on this tradition.  I never understood why this phenomenon occurred, but it definitely had a profound impact on me.  Gender was perceived as being fluid and non-confining; traditional male/female roles were obliterated from our world.  Accordingly, sexual orientation was also perceived as being fluid; bi-sexuality became the norm.  This mass adoption of “bisexual idenitity” had several interesting effects: it was no longer acceptable to identify as being straight or gay; monogamy was discouraged; and traditional gender “appropriate” dress was greatly frowned upon.  In effect, we as a community were doing exactly what the mainstream students were doing: constructing rigid rules for gender identity and behavior.  Instead of embracing gender diversity, we created our own list of taboos, and ostracised others who did not follow our code of conformity.  (I say “we” because I lived there, however, I was also an outcast of my community because of my love for makeup and heels.  Androgyny was the accaptable norm, not drag, which was deemed as offensive and “oppressive towards women!”) 

Despite the failure of my classmates to create a truly free and diverse community, many of us ultimately learned a great deal about gender identity and sexual orientation.  We learned that gender is a socially constructed phenomenon;  there is absolutely nothing in nature that suggests that men and women must dress or act any particular way.  Likewise, biological sex is also not necessarily static; intersexed and/or transgendered people demonstrate this very clearly.  Unfortunately, in our society, there still exists very rigid and confining standards for male/female roles.  I must give credit to all the androgynous folks out there for challenging traditional mores for gender behaviour!

[On a side note]: David made an interesting statement about his fascination with some lesbians who maintain some femininity while exuding some masculine energy as well.  I too can relate to this.  Several years ago I met a woman at an Ohio pride festival who completely interigued me.  A lesbian of color, she was as stunning as any “diva” I had ever seen. Voluptious, graceful, flawless makeup, hair done up all fancy, exquisite nails, and a GOATEE!  She was magnificently beautiful- strange- but beautiful!  I met her only briefly, but have been deeply enamored by her ever since.  Anyway, just a side antic…
-Shan     

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shanee… lol… seems like i need an affectionate name for you at this point and shan sounds like it misses the ee energy which i always enjoy. i have a friend who is quite the boy, in a fun way and his name is shane. i call him shaynee… of course you are shan-nee… anyhow… if that nick name makes you miserable let me know.

a guy i dated a few years back said to me that he enjoyed that i was a masc/fem blend and then a guy i was enjoying getting to know recently with a romantic energy said something to me recently about a friend of his who he was like 'girlfriends' with and i loved that he had more fluidity with his definitions. i have some friends i view as 'guyfriends' where my energy and their's connects on a more intellectual and more commonly 'male' level (not that all intellectual connections are male exclusive) and then some friends who i connect more on a 'girlfriends' level and some feel in between.

i was talking to my friend today about my androgyny reference over the years and in a way it feels pretty bizarre to me given that i have had that fascination in different ways (even considered writing a character like that in something) and yet had never realy connected that as a pattern for me in different ways over time. in a way it feels like a coming out to myself of sorts. a little shocking. wondering what it means about me. wondering what it may mean to me as a whole.

wondering if i want to explore that expression further on any level. there is a part of me that feels like too much expression of that in public for me personally would defeat the purpose as that for me would have me stand out and i am not one to like a lot of attention or seek it out. the androgyny of my soul is for me. on the other hand, there is a part of me that thinks for my own expression around the house or something, or at least in my room, it may be worthwhile. am i am androgyny king/queen in the closet coming out slowly? what the hell?

for the most part my physical expression has been virtually non-existent, but at least in the moment i feel like an inquiry of what my physical expression may be would be in order for me on some inner level at least. there is something both exciting and surprising as well as a bit scary to me in throwing out my assumptions about what my outer expression may be if i just let go of cultural views and let myself explore. indeed that is the soul at the heart of the 'radical faeries' it seems to me from my reading. seems like all part of the same inquiry. interesting stuff.

thanks for the inquiry shanee. good stuff continues.

om…
d

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perhaps the word that comes to mind is Epicine….
an old/archaic word hardly used since the rolling stones referred to the epicines….

in light of this, the studies of third/fourth/fifth/ xxyy yyxx yxyx xyxy etcc gender explorations of humaness remain to be openly and actively explored.

I myself, love to sing the lyric

am i a woman or a man
i don't really understand….

i'm just me
i'm just me…

sooooooooooo folks, keep it rolling….
and david, can i do your makeup when you come out as adrogyny queen??? tee hee

i think what i'm learning here in the bay, is first off, gender is such a temporary assignment, and i've encountered so many gender fuck folks, that i tend to see us all as one wild pack of fantastic mutations of the human genetic mundane, eh?

and……  i used to get knocked down a bit when i did drag cuz at times i would leave my goatee on… (early nineties) and some queen said, “you're sooooooooo seventies….” at that point, I realized I was an adrongynine who loved penus.

now, i get so many comments on my drag fuck … that I just narry a care what box anyone tries desperately to put me in the gay world…

as i continue to break thru barriers and boundaries….

i was just at an event and someone was referring to another  as “overtly GAY”,   ….eeeek
i flagged him with a smile, and said, “excuse me, but What IS overtly GAY?!”….. I mean is there an overt gay identity these days???? perhaps in the past, .

but now, the expanse is growing daily…

that coupled with bi questioning, straight acting, etc, bioboys, etc etc etc…its either confusing or wonderfully expansive…

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the dance between the value of definition and the necessity of it and the sheer hell it can create for us and others. creating a structure that one feels at home in, only to feel claustrophobic and need to move on.

love you comments willow. great stuff.

om…
d

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“Shanee” is just fine, LOL!

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lol… glad to hear… shanee it is then it would appear (at least from this homo being). now i have a friend shanee… and a friend shaynee… or shah-nae-nae maranga as i sometimes call him (you are the shanee of course!)

small pod aside… i had a moment in the car the other day where i turned to my friend and said… i love being gay… or some such thing. a really interesting moment. have probably felt that a time or too, but somewhere in there it felt deeper than it has before. probably all the reading i have been doing about gay identity. fascinating stuff.

lol…
d

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yes, being gay is grande…
the deeper we go, the more we understand and delight in why
the queer is here…and has and always will be…
to do fine magic…
mmmmmmmmmm
aummmmmmmmmmmmm

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it seems to me a lot of people run around dancing half naked at pride events talking about pride and i have been to some of those, but never really felt all that proud to be gay. i still don't know that i am proud in the traditional sense, but i certainly enjoy my relational orientation and the variances that make up myself as a gay being.

aum… om… ohm…

:-)

-d