Re: Getting to know you ..

when i was in college my hippy english teacher gave us some books to read. i chose the journey to ixtlan. i fell in love with that book. the thing about carlos and his books. i really didnt understood the lessons from don juan.i understood mentally only. sometimes years went by and my enrgy body finally understood the teachings . those books open me up to infinte possiblities. finding my hands never worked for me. i had to repeat  'im dreaming now control it”  .i did the power plant thing until i became too sensitive and had to give them up.

i only met 2 naguals so far .at the pyramids and at a state park and both times i had a chance to speak to them about the warriors path but i froze and chikened out

 the four agreement are some of most simple ideas but so difficult to master. (to me at least)

blacksand

It's a New Year

This'll probably be a bunch of random thoughts strung together … but, then, I use posting here as a way to process my own stuff and if others get somethin' from it, yay … otherwise, I've done some personal work and I'm good to keep going forward.

I must be a winter person or something. Seems like most of my major turn-arounds in life happen around the New Year. So, rather than being an arbitrary date on a calendar, it's an opportuanity for me to (re)evaluate where I've been and where I'm going. Since around TurkeyDay, I've been looking at that mirrored reflection I'm so fond of and feeling an intense amount of gratitude. Simultaneously, I've hit on some profound epiphanies (is that redundant?) about some work I need to do to eliminate or process or assimilate or to which I need to surrender.

I ended up spending about 10 hours on the phone with a close friend/witchy crone yesterday, pondering the mysteries of this thing I call my life. Looking at the things I react to … people sending me letters with pointy fingers, recalling relationships that are long past, but with which I still seem to maintain a nagging connection, reactions to forum posts where I'm inclined to respond, but realize that my words would be rhetoric, rather than experience. And exploring what they all have in common. It's the mirror thing again.

What am I (not) doing, being?

Comparing this year to last and realizing that it would appear that I've been somnambulating through this year, compared to exponetial growth in the previous … and defeating the judge in all that and silencing the ID. I am where I'm “supposed” to be. All's right with the world (presuming I continue to Walk my Path).

If I were “into” the belief systems of numerology and/or astrology, it would appear that all *kinds* of things are lining up to manifest. Yeeha. 'Bout time. And looking retrospectively at those times in my life when my three-pronged approach to manifesting worked. And, one of the things I'm stepping into is how to be in a space where I'm present enough to know that when I set a clear intent, follow through with an act of will and then release my expectations, I can (and do) create.

Amazing stuff. And Fun. And humbling. And powerful.

So, to begin this new “year” .. I …

- Walk this Path … not skirt it, not drift along, WALK
- Keep peeling that onion of belief systems that keep me from Freedom
- ACT in the present, BE here NOW … stop being reflective
- Seduce my Double, you little witch :)
- Walk in gratitude