REDEMPTION

There has been a theme lately in the conversations that I've had. It began in a conversation with my boyfriend about a movie. He said “I know why you like this movie so much”. I laughed because I knew what he was about to say. I love an enormous diversity of movies, shows, songs, videos. The single two things they all hold in common are the themes of hope and redemption.

The picture that I am posting today is one of my own (naturally, the copyright belongs to me.) It is a prayer for healing, which I believe is redemption. The price of redemption is accountability and action. The gift of redemption is healing. In my chapter on healing I had written this:

”I do remember when I broke through. When I felt healing soothe my soul and shift my being. When my behavior became more in alignment with who I am. I felt the winged brush of love touch me and the world around me shifted. I now hungered for growth. I grew hopeful in my change. I felt empowered and at peace”

I continue to hunger for growth. I thrive on the freedom it offers me. I am nourished in the welcome blessing I receive through my own redemption, time and time again.

I picked the egg to symbolize that process of healing. It is such perfection to me. When you feel the shell cracking, it can be so easy to identify with that as being YOU. And it is uncomfortable. (At best it is uncomfortable). It is the only way to birth the life that is held back by the barrier of the shell.

A few days after my honey made the movie comment, I was on the phone with someone I have watched struggle with the cracking of his own shell. Let's also call the shell Ego. Eckhart Tolle refers to it as the “Pain body”. My friend said that I could be very hard on some things and then embody compassion in greater measure than he'd experienced before. He said that he finally got it. When someone is engaged in trying to sell me BS, I have no mercy. (Truthfully, I have mercy, but not for the BS). But, when someone cracks that shell and they offer the vulnerability of their being… I honor that.

Personally, I don't know that I would say I'm hard. I am simply not buying the garbage. And oh…. How we can all sling the garbage in a desperate attempt to avoid the accountability needed for redemption.

I've watched people in my life throw away the friends that would reflect the truth to them. I've had friends throw away my friendship in the frenzy of trying to stop the shell from breaking.

I've watched people refuse the gift of redemption altogether and continue to live a life filled with drama and loss and hurt. Return to patterns that destroy the body and soul. Run from one relationship to another.

And yet…..

I love those movies that capture that moment of redemption because it is the birthright we are offered. Every single one of us is capable of healing the wounds that bind us. Every single one of us can heal the damage we have done to our lives. It simply takes one step. One step at a time.

Let the ego shatter. It isn't what is real. It never was.