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oh, to be the one to set the rule. it would play TOO much into my Ego… and THAT would be dangerous, indeed. as… DON da DUH DA-AN! the super hero Know as the man without boundaries i have a rep that takes on all comers. my Kryptonite. i am such a sucker for sob stories and pretty eyes and that is a danger to me. such a rush when someone can see that if they agree with all my high ideals and treacle covered scenery i am theirs FOREVER. what are word for if noone listens?… and i, then find i am committed as i wont to be. admittedly, i am hard to deal with. as i have been warned by brethren. but i would still say as my first agreed (at the time of happiness) that it IS all about me. (now i Know i can take that only so far.) if i cannot satisfy Self how in the world would i EVER satisfy another? but my chosen council for the present would take that away….. i must play the role of the bonsai. who is in control? i would choose my higher Power; as i Know Him. i would plead my case further but, i am not allowed the luxury of that conjunction…..

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A lot of awesome imagry in what you have to say.

I love the image of the bansai.  I'm discovering over time that the amazing thing is, as I heal the wounded parts in me, my understanding of God's love is filtered through something other than my own wounds.  Turning my will over becomes an act of surrender based in trust and the very dawning understanding that the very best is what is in store for me when I do this.

Surrender isn't sacrifice and that is probably what I most appreciate understanding!

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> > to surrender- not cowardice but blissful. compliance is NEVER an option.