Dhyan Salima : Complete Meditation

Living Prayer

Dhyan Salima said Mar 2, 2008, 3:33 PM:
 

Prayer has been my saving grace many times in my life. Writing in my last blog about the book “Left to Tell” got me thinking about prayer.

One of my most prayed personal prayers over the years has been

“My dear Lord, please give me the humility,
the strength, the courage and the trust
to let go of everything and to surrender to you fully.
Unconditional sweet and willing surrender to your will
my dear Lord.”

This translation feels a bit a strange since normally I am praying this prayer in my mother tongue, which is not English, but it still expresses my desire to give all of myself to The Lord. Do I always know what God's will for me is? No. but I trust in that in the sincerity of my prayer the answer will be found. Trusting is not always easy but over the years I learned that it is a decision that I can make in the moment. And somehow deciding to trust God always leads to more trust because I can always see the results of my trust clearly, which leads to more trust.

Also, I found a very beautiful web page on prayer today, that helped inspire me to write about prayer today www.theladyinprayer.org

Are you praying? Why or why not? If yes, what are you praying for? And what have you experienced through praying? How did you come to pray?….

Oh, my story how I started up praying: I was brought up Roman Catholic and always loved God and going to church and praying and all of it. But through life slowly that all changed and with 17 I had stopped praying or even believing in God for that matter. Then I received a tape from a friend with a women talking about her relationship with God and prayer and how real it is etc. I can't remember much of the tape but she said, that prayer works and if you are not sure that it does just try it out - pray and see for yourself that it works. Being a rather scientific minded person I liked the “science project: prayer” and thought of a prayer that would help proof that prayer works (or proof that it doesn't).

My test prayer was this: I was really, really bad in math and had a math exam the next day. Going against all deeply engrained Catholic believes I actually prayed for something for myself - that I would write a math test with a good grade (which never happened normally). The result: I had the best grade in class (not even understanding what the subject was even about). But not only that there was an astonishing huge gap between my grade and the 2nd best grade and all the grades of other people. For this one math exam my grade was truly outstanding.

Well, having proven the point that prayer works I didn't pray for the results of future math tests anymore and had the same bad math test results as always. But that wasn't the point anyway, I just wanted to see whether prayer works and having seen that math tests were not so important subjects to pray about anymore.