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Shy? Not me!Jill said Jan 8, 2007, 6:37 AM: |
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In the beautiful unfolding of getting to know someone, I made the comment that I was shy. That was disputed and I stopped to really look at that. I used to be shy to the point of being debilitated by it. That shifted and slowly changed. When had I quit being shy? How funny that I would continue to hold a definition for myself that doesn't fit. So, we talked about it. I am not afraid to be seen. I am not afraid to take up space or be heard. It changed in tiny steps. Singing. Writing. Finding ways to step out and simply be seen by others. The willingness to see myself and to honor what a beautiful being is existing in there. My shyness was a wall that kept me separate and sifted out the love that exists. It was the better and sneakier defense. And somewhere along the way I discovered that I could take one step and then the other until I was vulnerable. And in that vulnerability, I have discovered how to be intimate with another being. I've discovered how to honor the love that flows through each of us. And I have surrendered the worry that helped me build the walls that kept me feeling small and separate. |
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