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In my chart, the tightness of the orb on the t square between venus/chiron/moon. Aspies need somebody in their corner, so to speak, to help with the interface with society. Both my mom and my wife really abused this position, not caring about me at all, and using me for their own reasons. Check the placement of this, with chiron exactly on winter solstice and the moon/eros and venus at the fall and spring equinoxes respectively.
Amor at 0 degree cap, and Athena at 0 aquarius feed into this energy pattern. A feeling of brotherly love and a love of justice have been important to me in the extreme emotional isolation of described by the T square.
Psyche is exactly on my south node. I know well what love is, and that i've missed it in an interpersonal sense this incarnation. I've been forced to find love, and any acceptance at all really, from the natural world, and not the world of humans.
Urania exactly on my Sun, has me fascinated with astrology, as she is muse of astrology.
I can't read or write music, because of asperger's i think, i find this very very difficult. However, i have a strange talent for putting sounds together. I can't diagram a sentence either, can't think about words or notes that way, but use sound and words in an unusual way. Playing music is, i think, my strongest talent, but i don't like performing even a little, and am not that interested in recording either. I use music to comfort mycellf and to connect to spirit. I'm very interested in bringing the tools for this to others, not in showing them how great a musician i am. I think our over commercialization, over egoization of music has taken much of the magic out of it for the average person, and this i'd like to help correct this. Polyhymnia, the muse of sacred music, is exactly on jupiter, and apollo under influence of spica, i see as indicators of this.
So to me, its the dynamics of the aspects that tell the story. I really don't even pay much attention to the signs, I don't consider mycellf much of an astrologer either. I think of it as looking at an elephant through a straw. Astrology is so big, and the part i've studied so small. Anyway, its been of a great value to me in figureing out my own story, and even more, in helping me understand my kids. It really helped me be a better parent.
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