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had a wonderful four-day weekend at a pagan gathering around the theme of sacred sexuality. my connections are growing with this group as this was my fourth time at an event there. i'm deepening intimacy with more and more people, and getting more comfortable with other people's nudity and previously shocking behavior.
i used my flogger for the first time. i bought it a year ago, but haven't found a timing to use it. i got good feedback from the participant and onlookers. that was about an hour session of flogging and caressing and close eye contact and other playing with some instruments of pain that she brought (spatula spanking, light caning).
had one night of bonfire dancing that was the most intense for me, yet. tho i didn't get naked like other times, i felt better bonding with the whole group. i did get topless and was freeballing under a skirt.
i was gifted the opportunity to where a pagan pentacle and represent the family whenever i want. the man who sold it to me makes the pendant/necklaces. and tho i could have put it on myself, when he volunteered to put it on me, i felt an warm acceptance from all my newest friends. i got to discuss polyamory with polyamorists and made some interesting beginning connections. a couple of them beyond the subtle connections, with actual voiced communication. no ventures into the four intentional conversations, which shows myself that i'm comfortable being single.
i participated energetically in an anal massage. the instructor did the only physical probing with latex gloves, and the people watching were inviting to share in the energy with laying on of hands. i chose to hold the person's hand and head. it was a powerful wonderful event. just like reflexology on the foot the anus has connections to the whole body. and being powerful close to the root chakra, it's amazing that there is such a huge shadow to consciously working with it.
i 'played' with my goddess (an entity, not embodied in any person). i'm still not sure of her name, possibly artemis or morgana or kali. for a while i was a slave to her, being told to stay seated on the floor of the 'dungeon' and not move for hours. then she set me free to participate as a free man. the beginning and ending of dungeon-play every night was brought in and out with ritual inviting all gods to oversee. no pomposity, but a serious desire for spiritual wisdom of communication, respect and transformation, which is all a very natural fit for bdsm.
the president of the association (free spirit alliance) died last winter, and there was a memorial service at the labyrynth. and during the service i felt called to be an occasional receptacle for his spirit and accepted it, as he accepted me. i would have liked to share some of the uniquely innovative ways the rituals were done to enhance the spirit of the whole community toward openness and deepening connection. i would also like to give props to the two main sources of those rituals. but i feel that the spirits prefer i just say that, i am honored to be working with this part of wildly creative forces.
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