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Re: Lost in a deep funk...

http://haledavid1.gaia.com — Sat, 08 Nov 2008 18:27:15 GMT

Thea - hope you have found a way to get notifications though I will probably email you as well.

You are in the right spot to be lost, funked out, numb, IMO.

There's too much happening to keep up with. All we can do is try.

On this site I've found nothing but people trying to do that. Other's going through the same somehow makes it easier. To hear you're not alone.

There's hope. One foot in front of the other gets you somewhere else.

Question is --- where do you want to go?

Blessings, David

Hello, I'm new here

http://thea67mo.gaia.com — Sun, 02 Nov 2008 23:19:25 GMT

My name is Thea and I am new to this pod as well as Gaia. I am looking for ways of self-help, ways to improve my miserable existance. I'm tired of the way life is for me, now it's time for me to step up and take action. I know that nothing will change for me unless I do something about it. But I feel so defeated and for good reason, too. But I don't have to let it be this way, only I can make it change. I just need some help to get started, because I have no idea where to begin. I hope I've come to the right place!

Thea

Lost in a deep funk...

http://thea67mo.gaia.com — Sun, 02 Nov 2008 20:59:47 GMT

I'm lost, I'm lonely and I don't know where to turn. How do I get out of this deep funk I am in? Is there someone who can help me figure this out? I feel numb inside and I hate this feeling. Where do I start? I've lost me somewhere and I just want me back again. How do I find myself? If anyone can help or has anysuggestion or maybe just can lend a virtual ear, I would sure appreciate it.

Thea

Film about Raw Food

http://joshrawla.gaia.com — Tue, 30 Oct 2007 22:44:17 GMT

Has anyone seen the trailer for "Raw For 30 Days"? It's a documentary about six people, who normally eat fast food, who decide to go 100% raw for a month. It features interviews with doctors, experts, and raw foodists including Gabriel Cousens, David Wolfe, and Woody Harrelson.

I am new to raw foods and very interested in hearing from others who are raw foodists and people who are trying to change their lives for the better. Many people in my family have diabetes and I have changed my diet and gone raw to prevent myself from also getting diabetes.

The trailer on Youtube at:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jSuqCMld00w

Visit the Raw For 30 Days site at:

http://www.rawfor30days.com/

Who here is raw?

Re: Where Are You Now?

Wed, 03 Oct 2007 10:59:39 GMT

I'm sorry to hear that you had something nasty happen to you. If it's got to do with this site, I can assure you that you're not the only one who got in trouble. All the same there are people who are sincere and I would say it's still worth hanging in there and stay connected to "what is going on in the world" so as to speak. I hope you won't back off! :-) wishing you stamina and courage!

Re: Where Are You Now?

Fri, 28 Sep 2007 11:47:21 GMT

I will reveal the whole tale in a blog entry later on, if I m still at zaadz.

Re: When Positive Isnt So Positive

Wed, 05 Sep 2007 11:03:01 GMT

Can't say I know of any right now.

Perhaps you d like to have a go at it.

Related Thread Viz Religion

Mon, 03 Sep 2007 10:45:18 GMT

This proved germane to our conversation about religion/cults.

Re: Where Are You Now?

Sun, 02 Sep 2007 16:15:36 GMT

I'm sorry to hear that. I can only say that my experiences as female are somewhat along those lines, though contempt is maybe too strong a word in my case, it's more like "looked down upon as irresponsible and unadjusted to society", as a minor. So what happened to you?

Re: Cult Busting 101

Sun, 02 Sep 2007 11:44:23 GMT

What is true is true for you and when you take that away you have lost everything.

And when you take this one in the context of seeking the truth, meaning I guess, that which is true, then we are in a pickle. TO quote New Thought teacher Ernest Holmes (more or less) 'Many have believed the world was flat, but that didnt flatten out the world". I d hate to think that cults believe otherwise.

ONe could infer that your post suggests that respect be due paid to dogma (and the dogmatists that prmulgate them) that do not respect us as a person. I wonder why I should extend that obedience to others who demand it of me. I often get the exact sentence thrown at me when I get awfully close to demonstrating to such dogmatists that their 'truths' are anything but," Let us agree to disagree, shall we?" Stalemated when they cant back up their "the world is flat/my path is the only correct one/etc." rigidity/faulty thinking/evangelical outreach.

Religions that grow and endure do so to the degree that they assist people in their spiritual lives. To fulfill this role, the scripture of all religions are fully codified, broadly published and available to anyone, and its churches and missions are always open to the public.

Not altogether true, no. Religions are all built like a Machiavellian fortress; inner levels know more than outer levels do, which nkow nothing of these inner beliefs and movements. Very cultic behaviour. Movements within movements.

Re: Where Are You Now?

Sun, 02 Sep 2007 11:32:56 GMT

I m not sure how to write right now. I have appeared to have been duped again - but only totally. NOt by you, an incident I rather forget.

I wonder if anyone knows what it feels like to be male and unwanted, relatively poor and left alone, unhelped, ignored, and for the most part, held in contempt?

Re: Where Are You Now?

Sat, 01 Sep 2007 12:22:58 GMT

I also agree that there's a fallacy in believing that we know someone on the basis of what they write. I think one thing that has to be learnt is to realize that there can only be a very limited amount of closeness with most people. I think it's important not to believe in that sense of closeness too much but take it as a general encounter in life, nothing more, nothing less. I think the internet is quite good ground for practice. You get to "meet" many people and hear many voices, and it's good to feel part of groups because it's a human need we have. But at the same time, one has to be vigilant and realize that the point of contact is very brief, for the most part.

How to deal with that? Somehow we need to embrace the paradox of being open and empathic enough towards others so that some kind of encounter can take place, but also be eternally aware of its elusiveness and volatile character. I find that the internet has helped me practice discernement based on instinct and intutition, too. Many times I've felt warning signs but have decided to ignore them, yet not long after the person involved has attacked me. I try and not take people's goodheartedness for granted. In real life, this is causing me to be quite suspiscious of people who want to come close. Of course, if these people don't understand my concerns then I guess I have to really consider whether they can understand other aspects of my complicated and deep character as well. But I guess practice makes a master... Let's try and have an objective stance regarding our own vulnerability and suspiscions, so that they don't end up ruling our lives.

Re: Where Are You Now?

Fri, 31 Aug 2007 21:34:31 GMT

:-)
Have you noticed a couple of your posts have come up double?

I'm a bit sleepy to think sufficiently well tonight but I will get back to the questions you raised at a better moment, because it's important. We can't just all of a sudden decide to be all loving and gooey, and even if that may be an end result, what are we going to do in between? How do we survive opening up? I have taken on a lot of responsibilty for trouble that has come to me through other people, and although I do see them as being meaningful encounters that I have attracted on a deeper level, I think it's also dangerous to go on too much about how the individual attracts all their crap vs good in life. It's normal to think in a polarized way like that but when we are talking in terms of the spiritual and thus fundamentals of being human, it can be dangerous to submit oneself to such guilt. Even in the best of cases we will feel bad about not attracting better things than what we have right now. The trick is to accept what reality for us personally is even if it doesn't meet up to some New Age standards or whatever. I have learnt to acknowledge, that even if I have attracted mean people into my life for whatever karmic reason, these people still may be in the wrong, and I have a right to be angry about it. I've spent a lot of time lashing out at people because I feel I have a right to tell them to f*** off. People in general are very far from being perfect and we have to try and be aware and careful in this regard. People may be good deep inside, but the egolevel is tremendously powerful. That's what I think anyway. But I also try and be as objective as I can. If I lash out, then I try and leave it alone. If I can't, then I try and accept that too... Acceptance is my motto, I think. But it's not easy. I don't like to see myself react in negative ways, but then I have to accept that too! I think you're well on your way because you've realized that all this is not easy, there is no shortcut to happiness, but you've decided to go for it and you'll pull through because your decisiscion is so deep. Without deep committment people can only live off the gooey type of spiritual nourishment. It's a honey moon kind of thing, not a real relationship with life!

save the kidz fun raiser

http://guitargirl.gaia.com — Fri, 31 Aug 2007 04:48:39 GMT

hello everyone

i am working on a peace concert and a fundraiser to help
the homeless kids in NYC
our goal is to create a center for the homeless kids in every
state in the united states starting with new youk
our country helps the world but somehow we forgot about our own
these kids feel invisible but they are brilliant and can make
a huge difference if they are just cared for and guided by the
generation that preceeds them.

we have been getting tremendous support but would welcome

more help.

one thing we would like to do is put footage of the shows on AOL and
so that the shows can be available for down loads.
if any of you have contacts on AOL - please let me know

thanks,
irena
www.savethekidz.com
203-209-2779

Re: Where Are You Now?

Thu, 30 Aug 2007 10:26:23 GMT

Mindful awareness has no direct link to whether we are thinking of the past or the future or whatever. It's embracing anything that happens right now, just the way it is. We have to live with time, we can't avoid it, but we can sense the timeless realm by being aware here and now.

Great insight, vivi mari, that echoes KES' good post as well.

Re: Where Are You Now?

Thu, 30 Aug 2007 10:18:47 GMT

I need to learn to go with the pace of the material world. Don't you also find that diffcult?!

Very much so :)
I have suffered a kind of emotional breakdown not very long ago - a few days, starting a week or so ago, hit the worst point about 3 or 4 days ago...much to the ignorance of zaadzsters who know me (for the most part). I found advice in such times to be less than helpful, as I dont really know the person who is doing the advising at all...and as such have been either led around aimlessly or pointedly held at fault for occasions and situations not of my doing. The last correspondent called me "hateful and resentful" and although I do admit to being extremely angry, I did not lower myself down to abusive communication at all.

I read your last entry here with the greatest of wonderment. How do you manage to do it? Going on is such a challenge. But what else have we got to do that would be better? Now that you explained further I really can relate to what you have been through, it isnt only in the area of sexual/romantic relating, it is everyone.

Our field of other peopleness tend to get affected by (here it comes, new age thinking...)

the views we hold of them. I often let my anger colour my perceptions, and I am becoming aware of that, and with a sense of humour and not judging myself or others too harshly, to let that one go....I hold the belief that people arent sincere, or are using their intelligence to hold some kind of power over another - or to ostracize me for not fitting in, and/or being "good enough" for their social-approval requirements. Now, I can see that holding on to such a view would affect my speech tone, my body language, etc sugnificantly so as to colour others' perception of me.

But then I do see that the work I do both takes me to alot of social interaction with people, while maintaining a safe distance. Perhaps what I intuit about the Tarot card, the Hermit, as representative of my work in this world, appears to me to be apt.

Re: Where Are You Now?

Wed, 29 Aug 2007 16:46:42 GMT

Yes... the past does affect us every second of the day, so it has to be dealt with. People argue over this all the time, should it be this way or should it be that. I think I see it more as a flow of everything at once. Being present in the now only means that we are aware with as many of our senses as possible, and maybe extrasensorially as well, of the reality we are in right now. Mindful awareness has no direct link to whether we are thinking of the past or the future or whatever. It's embracing anything that happens right now, just the way it is. We have to live with time, we can't avoid it, but we can sense the timeless realm by being aware here and now. Time is just a construction which can be seen through.

I lead a very "naked" life in that I've always felt a great need to put myself out there so that other people can share my experiences. I feel that it's my mission. It started already at my birth. With time, however, I've had to also open up my vulnerabilities and have quickly seen it being taken advantage of by people who need someone to pick on. It happens in real life just as much as it happens online. In fact, for many months I've had a lot of experience of the consequences of being too open and gullible online. I think I'm looking for a middle ground where I have a greater sense of security and feel buffered towards the world, while at the same time I don't compromise my vocation. I think I'm finding it but I have to be a bit careful with what I say and where. Although I have mental capacity to deal with it, I cannot deal with the stress right now. I need to learn to go with the pace of the material world. Don't you also find that diffcult?!

As in medtiation, it seems like a good idea to return to the initial question every once in a while. It's a good question. It can bring out a better perspective both backwards and forwards. I think my hardest work is over and done with. The most excruciating part. Simply, because it feels that way. But life will never be easy. Only fuller and more secure in a deeper sense of the word. Don't you think?

Re: Where Are You Now?

http://kathysmith.gaia.com — Wed, 29 Aug 2007 10:58:59 GMT

Now and the future are the best places to be.

The future is made up of your imagination and what you want to put there.

Be in PRESENT TIME!!! It's much easier to solve the past you feel you must deal with as it can only be dealt with now anyway.
KES~

Re: Where Are You Now?

Wed, 29 Aug 2007 10:12:38 GMT

Notice how this "be here now" thread has "evolved" into
discussions about

future/past events and actualities and how they affect our nows,
and usually have I personally found the notion of the power of now
to be constricting if you were to force yourself to only be-here-now

Nowness is only free-ing when
unbidded
you abide
here now

The difference between a forced I need to be here now dammit,
and a wow, I m just here and it is mmmmmm nice

Big diff.

Re: Where Are You Now?

Wed, 29 Aug 2007 10:07:19 GMT